I believe I have my theme for 2019 and my ways of being. But I want to make 100% sure I’m ready before I publish them. Week 2 call asked new questions about what it is time for right now in our life and the different slices. Here are my thoughts from them:
I want to be me to the fullest. Be true to my dreams and heart. I bailed my time, my family, my loved ones, the experiences around me. I value my kindness and to the point process. I want others to treat me the way I want myself to be seen. I deserve respect and kindness back to me.
I want to feel calm, the senses of growing/learning about myself and the world around me. Seeing the different lives/ways of living that there is. Being streamlined to stop feeling overwhelmed, the frustration. Letting go of the shoulds and musts of getting this or that that done.
I’m craving the sun on my face, the wind in my hair, the rain on my skin, laughter and uninterrupted happiness. I want to believe in myself, my confidence, my skills and achievements. I want to feel comfortable in my own body and take away caring what others think of me.
When I looked at the different slices of life I came up with things I might want to work on in 2019. Such as; really connecting with Dave, moving into our house, starting my new job and figuring out where I want to go. A community with my blog and being comfortable in my body.
But why can’t I have what I want?
Because I’m currently in a state of overwhelm, frustration and losing myself.
Because I care what others thing of me and my actions. Making me feel I’m going over the top. Then there’s financial restraints and believing in myself and my confidence.
Because I have old beliefs such as I am unable to do what I want, not experienced enough, having the knowledge, that I’m not good enough. I should be doing what others expect of me.
The main part of the call that ultimately got me to my theme was my future visualisation. During this visualisation I felt at peace, a sense of calmness and that everything is in its tight place.
I was in my new home, pretty much complete. Knowing where everything was, with no clutter. I had a bright aura around me. I looked happy and healthy. Then I turned into a sunflower but could still see me. I was shining brightly. My future self gave me a silver infinity necklace.
With all that from week 2 call I feel I’m on the right path. I’m gonna do some more work on week 2 then I should know if I’ve chosen what feels right to me for my theme and ways of being.