Goals, Life

The Choices Made in My Life

The choices I make in my life are so that I can shine. I do what I can and choose want I want to focus on. There are times I may need to delegate so the day to day grind can get done.

I may make choices that turn messy but I chose it. Whether others want to go ahead and judge, they can. That’s not what’s important. My happiness is. They can judge but it’s not their choices, they are mine.

I take the time to evaluate / reflect on the messy in my life. To figure out the whys and what went wrong. This is so I can learn from the unrest / failure to help grow and move forward to a better outcome.

I’ve found putting the main goal into smaller steps more manageable to achieve. I’m learning more about myself each day and what drives me to achieve or up the wall.

I’m one that underestimates the week ahead to the point I don’t finish tasks or goals I set myself. Instead of jumping in feet first all the time, I need to take a step back and look what’s involved in the coming weeks and calculate my spare time to see if I’m able to give the goal actions the commitment it’s needed.

January, so far, I’ve felt we’ve done well as a group to tick off some actions towards making our house a home.

Eight ticked off and one we decided wasn’t needed any more.


My mind is on overdrive, wanting to get things organised. Not really the best before going to bed.

I found out where I’m gonna be based until April. This placement might also be permanent as the ward wants a full permanent position filled. I’m off for a chat with my current line manager to find out more in a few days.

The windows and doors are happening tomorrow, another task to be ticked off the list. We’re having a very good month on ticking things off for the house. Things seem to be coming together.

Watched: The Shinning > 2 out of 5


We’ve had a good weekend of it at the house. Heating is on. Pipes for the shower have been connected. We’ve been fixing the plasterers mess but we’re unable to complete today due to someone not turning up. So, we ended up going to the cinema. I dried at the trailers, set me up good for the film.

We also have friends time last night and time with family this evening. I want to get the house sorted but I was glad for a rest. I’m tired and with just only being the first week of a new job I don’t want to exhaust myself.

I’ve been thinking of the wedding this evening too. Having another look at the guest list and potential food as the main meal. I’m trying to go with the majority as not to waste too much food or money.

Watched: Mary Poppins Returns > 4 out of 5

Learning, Life

I’ve done a full week of training for my new job. Hearing stories makes me think, at times, what have I got myself into. But I feel I need a new challenge and this is one. It’ll help with my confidence and boost my communication skills.

By the sounds of it, there will be times it’ll be like going to the gym. Hopefully it’ll improve my strength too.

I’ve handed in my work so far. I’ve completed the online work too. The completed week leads to a busy weekend; there’s work getting done at the house.

We’ve a night out with friends and an evening with family. I think I’ll need time off after. Least we’re still in the classroom next week.

Watched: Collateral > 2 out of 5


‘Jumping to Notifications’

After sending a text to Dave at lunch, I put my phone down and looked around at my fellow colleagues, everyone else was on their phones. The odd conversation was happening but eyes to their phones.

When in the class room, I’ve had my phone on silent, in my bag. Some had theirs on the table, on silent, but every so often might look and reply to whatever they needed to reply too.

While watching the telly this evening, when my phone went off, I jumped on it to reply. Then I kept checking different things to see if there was any change. I realised I need to stop. My old job I have emails galore. I needed to use my phone for work as the care plan was assessed through an app.

I don’t need to do that with my new job. My phone is a lot quieter and my mind’s only processing it now after 2 away. You know what? It’s nice. I still need to stop jumping each time I get a notification or checking my phone for changes. I ended up putting my phone on silent for a couple hours this evening. Maybe I need to take steps away from my phone. Work on that separation anxiety of not responding to things straight away.

The world isn’t gonna collapse just because it’s taken me X about of time to reply to an email, message or a phone call. To work on my face to face conversations to better my communication. It’s not gonna hurt me, it’s just gonna take some time to feel comfortable; talking and spending time away from my phone.


Day 3, I went a different route. It took 25 minutes to get to a main roundabout. I’m not going that route again in a hurry at that time of day.

The day went well, 2 more standards completed. I still don’t know where my first placement will be. I emailed my line manager, hopefully I’ll get a reply before I have to ring him before I have to ring him back tomorrow.

We’ve 3 more standards to learn. I’m currently feeling a cold. Hit and miss of when it is effecting me. The night seems to be the worst.

Watched: Ready Player One > 2 out of 5


‘Feeling at Ease with my New job’

I’m liking the way my new employer is providing their training. It’s nice to be with a group of people who I could see around while working. We had two more topics taught. I have been able to do the three standards learnt so far on the C C website. I’ve also configured the works email and done the Manual Handling Workbook. Apart from my car permit, I believe I’m up to date with everything so far.

I remembered it was Tuesday today, I haven’t turned on the telly. I finished a magazine, read some more of my library book and been shopping for work clothes and shoes.

I feel at ease with the new job so far. But the past couple of nights sleep hasn’t come easy. It’s taken me a few hours to fall asleep and I’ve woken a couple of hours before I needed to be. Last night tiredness took over and I went to bed early but still took hours to fall asleep. It made me fight the tiredness today but I’m gonna go later to see if that helps me fall asleep at all.

Tomorrow is another day.