We as a family will do this together

Family means the world to me. I’d do anything in a heartbeat for them. I was due to go to work after looking after my Grandma while my Grandad went to a funeral. However, that wasn’t the case.

I did look after my Grandma but my Grandad ended up going to hospital. After his dizzy spell the other night. It happened again today. Thankfully, he was at the doctors when it happened. They organised for him to go to the hospital.

Knowing this was gonna take time and my mum working away, I was the only one who could. I informed work I may have to give up two of my calls for the afternoon. They found a carer for the first call but not the second.

My Grandad was still waiting for his blood results. I was able to get a neighbour to help out, for me to do the call. On my way back, my Grandad was ready to go home. I picked him up. He needs a 24 hour heart monitor test but waiting for them to get in touch.

It wasn’t even tea time by the time I gave my final update with work. My grandparents didn’t want any more help. But work had covered 4 out of 6 of my morning calls for tomorrow without consulting me. I never asked for these to be covered.

I understand they need to have someone to all the customers but they could have waited longer. They would have still had enough time to cover them if I’d rung back at tea time to say otherwise. We work still 10 pm. There’s nothing I can do about it now.

My Grandad is OK for now. We’ve nothing to say otherwise. We’re doing what we can, when we can. We as a family will do this together.



Family Gratitude

I’m grateful my Grandad felt he could ring to let us know he doesn’t feel right. As soon as the phone was down my mum was on her way round to stay the night. 111 phoned. On the doctor waiting list.

I’m grateful we’ve got family around to give support. I’m on standby if Grandad needs to see the doctor so I can stay with my Grandma. With my mum at theirs, she can help my Grandma while my Grandad rests.

I’ve also bee told my Uncle was in A&E today after a hot water bottle burst on his knee. 3 hours later, knee bandaged up. Blistering and yellow puss. He’s to go back in a couple of days.

We like to have things all happen at once in this family. History has shown this too. Why let it stop now.

A Moving Date – 7 and 1/2 years gone by

After two months since I was told we were moving, we now have an official moving date. In 2 and 1/2 weeks the place I call home, will not be home anymore.

I’ll have lived in this house for 7 and 1/2 years. My mum and I came to this house, just us and 5 dogs. We’ll be leaving with my mums’ husband in tow, my fiance moving into the new home plus 2 dogs.

In these past 7 years, we have grown in how we live our lives. Having a more positive mindset. My mum told me today that she has now finished taking her anti-depressants. Last week I decided to wean myself off my own anti-depressants.

Our mother/daughter relationship has had a number of rocky roads but now our relationship has become one of a friendship as well as family bonds.

Just like the candle burning brightly beside me. Our awareness of the world shines.

I want our big day to feel right

We went to a wedding open day at a venue close to home today. Before going I had in my head that I don’t want my wedding in a marquee but this one impressed me. It had that indoor vibe rather than a tent popped up.

This venue (The Holmefield Arms) has turned out to be a real contender. The only doubt about it is about disabled access to the ceremony room. This could make or break this as a possibility.

I liked this one over The Rodgerthorpe one we saw last month at a fayre. The disadvantage to that venue is the numbers. Think I’ll keep my eye out for an open day so we can see a set up for the wedding space.

Even though we decided we’re gonna get married in 2021. We’re unable to book a venue. I’m glad we’re looking as we’re able to take our time looking around. I can get a feel for the places without having to rush to make a decision and have that doubt behind my choice.

I want our big day to feel right in all ways.

Watched: Peter Rabbit > 4 out of 5
Keeping up with the Jones > 4 out of 5
The Colony (2015) > 3 out of 5

Fareham: Day 3

We spent the day close to home. I didn’t step in the car. Was nice to have a peaceful day. We had a lie in. I also had a phone call from a tutor at Newcastle College about a distance learning course in Life Coaching.

This is all thanks to the book I read previously 365 ways to be your own life coach by David Lawrence Preston, who mentions the course. Although a 10-year-old book, the college still does the course. The tutor had sent me an application form, so next week I’m going to fill it out and send it back.

To the rest of the day, we spent the majority of it with my auntie. We walked into the village, to the bakery. After lunch, we walked to the seafront which was a mile from their home.

It was a lovely walk and great my auntie was our guide. We walked from the point in Stubbington at Solvent Park (I may have got that name wrong) into Lee-on-the-solvent tot the centre street where the pier used to be. We had a drink at the Bluebird Cafe then walked home again.

Even with the cold breeze, it was a lovely walk. Amazing to have such a place to go within walking distance from your home. From where we were we could see Southampton and the Isle of Wight. Both walks had helped me to achieve over 10,000 steps. Approximately 15,549 steps.

With the sea breeze air, our 2-hour walk made me tired. I ended up napping before dinner.

My auntie has been amazing. Giving us a roof over our heads for 4 nights and lovely home-cooked meals. Not wanting anything from us. I have tried, even with her favourite cake at the bakery, couldn’t change her mind. Family can be a wonderful thing, something I don’t wanna take for granted.

This evening we spent time watching telly with my aunt and uncle. We watched 2 shows I’d never seen before; Blue Bloods and Shakespeare and Hathaway: Private Investigators. I’d like to watch them again.

 Well, tomorrow is our last full day here in Fareham. I’m glad to have had a break from everything. It’s put my mind on reset. Get back to it with a fresh perspective.

Road Trip: Southhampton Overnighter Part 2

That bed was lovely. I’d like to know where they get their pillows from. This morning was I think for a long while since I’ve had such a big breakfast. I had some of the full cooked breakfast plus 2 yoghurts. At home, I tend to just have a cereal bar.

My step-dad the other day even mentioned I’m eating better. After breakfast, it was time for the journey back home. Longer due to a traffic accident but again like coming down yesterday, I slept.

We got back at a time which meant I didn’t have to rush off home. Dave and I were able to watch a film then have dinner.

When I was home, I realised I’d felt something missing, that missing was Dave. It’s been a long while since I’ve felt like I’ve missed him. I’ve had a lovely few days off.

We’ve made a list of potential guests to our wedding. Least we now have an idea of venue size needed.

Watched: Don’t Breathe > 3.5 out of 5