Goals, Health, Life, Writing

Fierce Self Love: Part 1

One of my blackboard tasks is Loving my Body. It’s not a task that can be just ticked off. I really need to be loving my body wholeheartedly for this to be true.

When I think about loving my body, it’s not just my body but myself as a whole. Surely, if I can’t love myself, I can’t love my body. Loving myself unconditionally. Loving myself fiercely.

I want to be able to see the love for myself each time I look into the mirror. See my flaws, not as flaws, but what makes me who I am. That my nose is perfect in every way as it is the nose that makes me me. That the off centred mouth makes the smile that shines each day.

I might be borderline when it comes to my weight; underweight to ideal. But this is the body that allows me to move and have a shape others dream of.

To love myself no matter what, I should disregard what the official scale says. I know when I feel healthy and good about my body. I don’t need an aim to lose weight or one to gain. I need to aim to eat healthily, enjoy daily movement and to know that I’m beautiful no matter what.


Watched: Dracula Untold > 3.5 out of 5
Safe House > 2.5 out of 5

Goals, Learning, Life

BSL Video Series: Alphabet

Let’s start with the alphabet. It’s what I first learnt. Just like with writing, learning the alphabet made it easier down the road when learning words. Letters make the words right. Some word signs are linked to the individual letter signs too.

BSL uses the two-handed fingerspelling. Some other sign languages may use only the one hand. The alphabet is used when the signs are not known for words or there hasn’t been a sign assigned. Like names for example.

TIP: The fingers of the non-dominant hand, so my left, represent the vowels; A E I O U. When these signs are used, I will point my dominant hand, my right to the finger the letter represents.

Last Weeks: Introduction

Up Next Month: Numbers

Goals, Life, Writing

How to Breakdown a Goal

I make a number of goals; some are big, some are small and some are out of the blue “I wanna do that”.

There’s a difference between saying I’m gonna do this or that, then there is to actually do the goal. I need to think more of the goal.

The Why?

I have a goal. But what is the why behind it? There must be a reason as to how the goal came about. Having this clear should allow me to see exactly why I’m taking my time and energy on it.

Where am I?

Once I have my why?, I need to figure out where I’m already at with the goal. There’s no use me going running to do 5 miles if I can’t breathe after a few 100 yards. I have to be honesst about where I need to start from.

Break it down

This allows me to break the goal down into managable chucks. Lets go back to my running point. I could break the 5 miles down to 100 yards, 500 yards, 1 mile, 2 mile etc… Getting to each benchmark goal is worth celebrating.

Daily Plan

Once I have my benchmark goals, I can make a daily goal. Starting each day with a clean plan to execute that day. Allowing me to be one more step closer to achieving my overall goal.


Running isn’t a goal of mine. I did try to run at one point but that didn’t work. I didn’t have a plan. My asthma wasn’t helping or should I say I wasn’t taking it into consideration and my heart wasn’t in it.

All goals will be different to others. Plan and achieve whatever the goal maybe.


Watched: The Babysitter > 2 out of 5
Lake Placid > 2.5 out of 5

Books, Goals, Life, Writing

Book: Deep Work by Cal Newport + No Social Media: 8 Months

I’ve just put down the book Deep Work by Cal Newport. I say put it down but I’ve not read it all. I found the book too much research for me.

I believe deep work should be utilised more in professional and even in our personal lives. Just think of all the things we could do in the world if we had periods of deep work scheduled within our days.

I started off being able to read the book as normal. However, once I got to chapter 3 of part 1, I started skipping bits. I read the main points and parts that stood out for me. The quit social media rule certainly did.


For me, who has quit social media, had a bit more of a connection with personal stories. Then the research took over for my liking.

I made the decision to deactivate my social media and also resigned from being a social media volunteer at the animal charity I volunteer at still on 1st November 2017. 8 months free of social media, I do feel more freedom. I’m talking to and seeing friends and family more.

The bad news, the comparisons and my mental health have stopped/improved because of taking this step away. I feel at times, that I should go back, maybe do things differently but then I think that’ll be more trouble than its worth. The people I want, and those who want, to be in my life are around me.

I’m living my life my way and not comparing. stressing or believing I’m behind in life or doing the wrong things. I stay in my comfort zone. There are times I want to stretch out and do things I want to or scare me. There are times that writing and publishing posts are getting out of my comfort zone.

Before I had the belief and negative thoughts that I couldn’t do any of this because of judgements and words of other people, especially those I grew up with and don’t even talk to any more.

I use my blog as my online platform. There are times when I want to be more within the community, other days just happy posting and that’s it.

There were a couple months at the start of 2018 I did set up a new Facebook account so I could be apart of the FB lives for my UCP course. Even that didn’t last for me. I deactivated that too. All the lives were recorded and placed on my portal. I did some comments etc but it wasn’t resonating with me.

I went back to Facebook for that because I thought I should do. I didn’t need to. I feel that I’d be happy not to be on social media now for the rest of my life. If that’s the case, we’ll see what the future holds.

But for now, I’m happy without social media. I’m happy saying no to going back on. I wouldn’t do it if a job entailed it. I clearly wouldn’t be doing the right job for me.

Goals, Life, Writing

Away from the Telly

The feeling good feeling has continued into today. I’ve had moments where my mind has gone on a tangent but I’ve been able to bring it back to the present.

Once up and ready, Dave and I went into town. We did some shopping, had lunch and visited The Hepworth Gallery. This trip was our third to the gallery this year. Now we’ve seen the main showings twice.

We’re now going over to see the limited time exhibitions. This time there were 2 artists works, not just the one there normally is. Both different but compliment each other. Now the next time we go will be past October. We may get another visit before the year is out.

As its No Telly Tuesday, without realising at first what Dave was doing, he was supporting me with this without me reminding him of such. It made me appreciate him.

We played my new game; Harry Potter Hogwarts Battle Deck-Building game. Yesterday the villains won in year 5, we decided to start again with year 5. This time we won 5 and 6 but paused during year 7.

We did have breaks again, we took the dogs to the vets and then on a walk, got over 10,000 steps. We had dinner and had a mini catch up with my dad.

I also rung the estate agents for an update; all the paperwork is now with our solicitor, the searches can now be done. Hopefully, we won’t have to wait much longer.

I finished reading The Secret by Rhonda Bryne. Well, I am getting that book. I felt joyful reading through. It’s helped me to be happy, changing my mind set by understand the secret. I like that when reading, it can be picked up, start from the beginning or choose a section. I can feel and understand why it has helped so many people around the world.

I created, well I went onto Moonpig and personalised a ‘be my bridesmaids’ card for E. I wanted to do something a bit more special then just sending a text message. I feel she’ll say yes.

Books, Goals, Life, Writing

Book: Strongman by Eddie Hall ‘The Beast’

We’re still no further with the house buying. It’s been 7 weeks now. All because the vendor hasn’t completed a form.

Fingers Crossed. Prayers. Positive vibes.

We’re off next week, it is a good time to be able to finish it all to allow completion.

Next week we’re going to the venue to pay the deposit. Then that is step two, our venue organised. Step one is also completed too. We have booked in our provisional date and time for a registrar on the 23rd May 2020 at 1:30.

We now have to save and organise the rest of it.


I finished reading Strongman – Eddie Hall The Beast.

I remember watching The Worlds Strongest Man when I was younger. I was fascinated by the weight they lifted and how on earth they pulled buses or planes.

Eddie Hall is our UK Strongman. I have a vague recollection of him in a few episodes I’ve seen. We watched his documentary last year so getting to read his autobiography was a treat for me.

All throughout his personality shined. The book made me laugh, cry and cringe. I would love to see Eddie Hall at a Strongman event. Here’s hoping for another documentary being made.


I’ve finally got my hands on The Secret by Rhonda Bryne. Going by How The Secret Change My Life I cannot wait to start.

The check is pinned to my notice board. £50,000 by May 2021; Thank you Universe I cannot wait for that either.