Goals, Life

‘Body Love is a Choice’

Self-love, body love, is a choice. It’s my journey to move forward. I’ve made the conscious decision to start searching for the love for myself and not hate. Healing between myself and my inner critic has begun. There is space being freed up so I can truly listen to myself and what I want.

Practicing gratitude is a way to help me do this. To help reduce the negative emotions, the resentment, frustration and anxiety in me.

Today I am thankful to my family around me for the holidays, to be able to spend the time with each in turn.


Watched: Blockers > 3.5 out of 5

Braven > 2.5 out of 5

Goals, Learning, Life

BSL Video Series: Describing Vocab

Before I was able to describe my family members, I learnt the vocabulary to describe appearances and statuses.

This first video shows signs of facial body parts:

  1. Hair
  2. Eye
  3. Nose
  4. Mouth
  5. Beard

This second video shows signs for describing a person appearance:

  1. Short
  2. Tall
  3. Thin
  4. Fat
  5. Old
  6. Young
  7. Baby

This next video shows the signs for describing a person marital status:

  1. Single
  2. Engaged
  3. Married
  4. Separated
  5. Divorced
  6. Husband
  7. Wife
  8. Children

You can give a more detailed description with just one sign; take hair for example:

That is the vocab that I have learnt so far for describing people. To prevent this post from being a very long one filled with videos, I have spilt it up. The next post in the series is showing the vocab learnt in this post being put into sentences.

Previous: Family Members

Next: Describing Family Members

Goals, Life, Mental Health

Developing Meditation Practice

I’ve had the goal of developing a meditation practice on my goal list for a while. Everywhere I look to do with mindfulness, meditation is one of the answers. Which is why I put the goal in my list in the first place.

I’m a person very much in my head. Quick to do things and eating especially. Hence, why I thought meditation should be one of the things I try. I have given it a go every so often. I struggle to sit still to listen or have my mind wonder so much I’m more frustrated more then when I started.

While looking into inhabiting my body, meditation comes up here too; to help with body love, in order to help answer and how to find your true self.

I’ve read that meditation is proven to increase positive emotions and decrease depression, anxiety and stress, among other things. It all sounds amazing for me. It’s getting into the habit, so that what has happened before doesn’t happen again. Clearly, I haven’t found the right way for me as yet. I think I’ll try new ones for a set amount of days then see how I feel about them. Surely there’s a tight one out there for me somewhere. Right?

Goals, Life

What do you value in yourself?

When I think of an answer to the question “What do I value in myself?” I think of traits I have; like being organised. Wow, it’s really hard. Saying nice things about myself shouldn’t be hard. My mind goes blank. I guess my negative beliefs. Have taken over that much I can’t even think of good things about myself.

If I’m to love my body, I also need to love the person I am. Thinking more positive about myself. I treated myself today and got my nails done. Glitter and snow flakes ready for Christmas. That is one thing I love. Having my nails all painted up. I’ve one thing I love about my body now. I’ll have to learn to find other lobes about my body.

Body love is a big thing that can change the way I see myself. I believe it’ll help me with my goal of learning to inhabit my body. I take a pleasure in having my nails done. I want to have the sense of pleasure more often. This is a type of sensual pleasure. Pleasure being one of my ways of being.

I’d like to learn the sensual pleasures not just having enjoyment in the bedroom. Having my nails done is one sensual pleasure I’d like to carry on.

This led me to looking into other ways of inhabiting my body. I found a post that gave ways of getting in touch with your body. I’ve decided to try each on this list throughout 2019. Plus any more I find during my research, to see if any are a pleasure for me or teach me something about myself.

Some of these items scare me and some I judged when I read them. Then I felt guilty for judging. One thing occured to me when I read the post was do I know the true meaning of inhabiting my body?

So, naturally, I googled it. It brought me to this meaning:

Breathing through the emotional pain of our human experience is an initiation that makes more room for our soul to inhabit out body – Intuitive Creativity

Get out of my head and feel my emotions is what I took from that. I found others tell their honest thoughts on their body loves.

It’s great to see others out there telling their stories. I hope to continue to share mine along the way. I know I need to take things slow.


Watched: About a Boy > 3.5 out of 5

Bad Teacher > 3 out of 5

Goals, Life

Quarter 1 Goals for 2019

The reflection challenge for week 3 is to make a small step for each of the big goals that I can do immediately. I have made them this evening and will aim to do all three tomorrow:

  1. Buy paint for the kitchen
  2. Walk the dogs
  3. Research ways can inhabit my body

All I’ve got to do for week 3 and to finish HoCo for another year, is to create my quarter 1 goals.

I’ve decided my first is to Make Our Home Liveable. The time is right to get out home to the point we can live in it. It won’t be complete but least we can do bits and pieces while we’re in and can afford it.

The following are action items I am starting with for this goal:

  • Radiators on
  • Gas Service
  • Junction Boxes
  • Paint the kitchen
  • Concrete hole
  • Screed floor
  • Second Plasterer
  • Paint the bathroom
  • Tile the Kitchen floor
  • Kitchen fitted

There are loads more to do but these can be seen on my vision board below. Plus there is only so much I can do at once.

My second goal is to do small actions to feel more comfortable in my body:

  • Research actions
  • Choose a couple to do each week
  • Reflect how I felt

More actions may come up once I’ve researched but right now this is what I’ve got.

By doing this writing I’ve come to finish week 3 naturally. I’m feeling positive about completing my goals for the new year. I believe Bloom is gonna be my year! The year of mastery and/or destruction. Every quarter there is a review call with HoCo. But I’d like to reflect on what I’m doing through my writing. I think this will help me; I just need my goals in sight.

I’ve put them onto a whiteboard which is currently on a shelf in our bedroom. I see it being in the kitchen when we’re in our house. The two boards side by side; one my vision board, the other the house board.

My aim for tomorrow is to complete the 3 actions steps I’ve set myself.

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Watched: Rough Night > 1.5 out of 5
Mortal Engines > 3.5 out of 5

Goals, Life, Stratejoy

Big 3 Goals for 2019

Week 3 of HoCo is near an end. I’ve only just started but I feel I’ve got a lot done from this weeks call considering that I wasn’t ready for it yesterday. To tell the truth I don’t think I was 100% ready today. I’ve had some goals running around my head for the last few days. I think that’s what’s spurred me on a bit to complete the call.

After a couple of hours, I’ve come up with my 3 goals:

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All three connect to my theme and ways of being. From these, I’m hoping 2019 will be my year for growth and destruction! I’m not finished all of week 3 as yet, I’ve still got the challenges, guest interviews but also I need to sit and think of my 2 quarterly goals for Q1.

I feel one should be to do with my house; get to the point where I can move in by the end of the quarter. Another I feel could be with related with learning to inhabit my body, possibly to find small ways/activities that I can start trying out to see what I think. Wait, stop, I’ve set the goal to get out of my head meaning think is the wrong word. To see what I feel and take from the new experiences.

I believe I’ve found a blog post of 20 ways to get in touch with my body. I might give them a try.

I now have my NVQ certificates. It’s taken a long 6 months, more hard work then the qualification itself. But they are now in my possession. One thing less I now have to think about. I guess my goal of Getting Shit Done is happening.


Watched: The Christmas Prince: A Royal Wedding > 4 out of 5