Mortage: Appointment Due

Tomorrow we’re meeting the financial advisor. I’m excited but also scared that I’m not gonna hear what I wanna hear. Whatever he says, we have to accept. I’d rather know our position on whether we’re able to get a mortgage or not.

If not he’ll be able to give us pointers on how to get in the right position for one.

I’m off to the doctors tomorrow. It’s my new patient appointment. To register with this doctors I needed ID and proof of address. I don’t ever remember having to do that at previous doctors.

So far I’m impressed with the new doctors and I haven’t been yet. I registered 4 days ago. I already have one nurse appointment and a blood appointment all in the same week.

The reason for my blood appointment is I finally heard back from the blood test I had over a month ago. I heard by receiving another blood form for a retest. On the clinical notes, it says high potassium.

I’ve no clue what that means but apparently it can cause my twitching, tiredness, chest pains and heart palpitations. Let’s see what the new test shows this week.

It’s a busy week for us but at the end, we then have 9 days off and spending a week in Wales with friends. Cannot wait for it.



Quarter 2 Goal 2018: Daily Movement Update

Since moving, I’ve been working on my daily movement goal. I’ve had a go on the exercise bike and I’ve been walking more. Today has been the second day this week that I’ve gone over 10,000 steps. Today’s total: approximately 15,221 steps.

Dave and I have walked into town and back to do shopping and odd jobs on the to-do list. We also visited the charity shop. Smaller then the one where I used to live. On first look I feel like I’ll struggle to find something for me. I can be wrong.

Later on I walked to and from my grandparents to so some coursework. I found I had my feedback from my module 1 Life Coach Course. I Passed! After a family dinner. My mum and I walked the dogs.

I’ve enjoyed my day off today. It’s the first time in a long while I’ve felt it has been a proper non-working day.

We as a family will do this together

Family means the world to me. I’d do anything in a heartbeat for them. I was due to go to work after looking after my Grandma while my Grandad went to a funeral. However, that wasn’t the case.

I did look after my Grandma but my Grandad ended up going to hospital. After his dizzy spell the other night. It happened again today. Thankfully, he was at the doctors when it happened. They organised for him to go to the hospital.

Knowing this was gonna take time and my mum working away, I was the only one who could. I informed work I may have to give up two of my calls for the afternoon. They found a carer for the first call but not the second.

My Grandad was still waiting for his blood results. I was able to get a neighbour to help out, for me to do the call. On my way back, my Grandad was ready to go home. I picked him up. He needs a 24 hour heart monitor test but waiting for them to get in touch.

It wasn’t even tea time by the time I gave my final update with work. My grandparents didn’t want any more help. But work had covered 4 out of 6 of my morning calls for tomorrow without consulting me. I never asked for these to be covered.

I understand they need to have someone to all the customers but they could have waited longer. They would have still had enough time to cover them if I’d rung back at tea time to say otherwise. We work still 10 pm. There’s nothing I can do about it now.

My Grandad is OK for now. We’ve nothing to say otherwise. We’re doing what we can, when we can. We as a family will do this together.


Amber Weather + Neuro Appointment

Well, that amber weather warning alert is upon us again. This time I’m working. No hibernating for me. I’m proud of myself for driving in the horrible weather.

But a couple of near misses gave me a heart attack. My heart felt like it was gonna come out of my chest. My stomach in a knot.

I got through it. Home safe and sound. Getting myself rested and in the mindset to do it all again tomorrow.

I had my Neurology appointment for my twitching and pains. My end takes from it was he believes it’s down to my anxiety. I’m not convinced. I can’t do anything else really.

He gave me a blood form for some tests so will go for them when I’m able over the next couple of days. See if they show anything. Knowing my track record, everything will come back normal.

Something about me is ‘normal’.

Neurology Appointment

Before Christmas, I was referred to the Neurology department for my twitching and pains in my hands. I’ve now received my appointment date. Right now, I am glad. Today has been a bad day for the pain and not just in my hands. I’ve been experiencing them all over including my eye.

I say pain. I’ve experienced worse. It’s more of an ache. The only way I can describe it is at the end of a cold when your body is aching, it’s hard to do things. That’s how I’m feeling. I’m grateful my appointment has come through.

Film: Christine + Emotions

I wanna talk about emotions. I had a period of time where I felt low. I haven’t had a bad day. I’ve had a nice one.

What’s caused my low mood?

Watching the film Christine (2016). A career driven reporter in 1974, having frustrations at work while struggling with depression. Commits suicide live on air. Based on true events and with my understanding of mental health, the film really struck me.

Towards the end of 2017, I took a free emotion course by Dan Newby. Just an introductory one, no qualifications. To help me understand emotions more. I wrote notes, they’re in my look at me pile, laughing at me. 

At the time I took in a little. I didn’t fully understand it all. My low mood from this film has without realising until I looked at the notes that I’ve clicked on my understanding of the first model we were taught.

Phenomenon > Experience > Interpretation

I don’t know where directly this low mood came from. When watching the film, my interpretation of this experience has come from my understanding of mental health and my curiosity for true event stories.

This interpretation is how I see the world. My interpretation will be different to others. Neither of us is right or wrong. We’ve just had different interpretations from the same experience because we see the world differently.

We are all observers in the world. We see things differently. We experience different emotions, caused by the same phenomenon. So we should. That makes us who we are. It makes me who I am. It makes me;


Trying Qigong

I tried a new type of exercise for me. A taster of what a full class would be like. Qigong. I hadn’t heard of this before. I learnt it in the book I’m reading, How to Coach with NLP by Robbie Steinhouse. I don’t believe I wanna coach with NLP but he has good practical advice on coaching.

My taster of Qigong was good. I think I’m gonna try a full class from the choice on YouTube another day. As it’s a little gentler (from what I experienced) it might help me exercise when I feel my body having twitching and pain days.

Even with the taster of Qigong, Dave and I took the dogs for a walk. Meaning today is the first of 2018 that I’ve achieved over 10,000 steps.