Goals, Life

‘I Love Listening and Dancing to Music’

I did better today with no telly Tuesday on Wednesday. I got some things done and also took some time to listen to music and dance around. A good way to learn to inhabit my body and get a bit of daily movement in there.

There’s a part of me that feels I don’t know what to do with myself even though I have the to-dos to get through. Like I’m missing out on my purpose. My purpose can’t be to watch telly day in and day out. Maybe once I’m on a roll with my new job and moved into our house. Until then I need to take it a day at a time, focus on myself and figure out some new loves.

My first, I figured out 10 days ago that I love having my nails done. Today, I’ve realised I love listening to powerful/positive music and dancing /signing around to it. I’m hoping along the way I’ll find out more about myself

Life

Inspired by Marie Kondo

I am now in the start of my ‘Bloom’ year. It’s been a day of sorting. As a family we have got my grandparents living arrangements downstairs. We don’t know my Grandma’s reaction from tonight until tomorrow. Although my Grandad has mentioned it to her on a few occasions. We’re not 100% sure she’ll fully understand what it means.

I’ve spent most of the afternoon sorting our bedroom out. I was inspired by Marie Kondo show tidying up on Netflix. I loved her look and knew I wanted to watch it as soon as I knew it was coming. I ended up filling two charity bags to take and then 2 bags for the bin. I moved our clothes and used the Konmari methods of folding. It’s got me thinking on how I’d like our wardrobe to be in our house. Although a wardrobe is a long way off.

We’ve collected some bathroom items and kitchen items yesterday. We’ve a delivery in a few days time. I’m collecting some pipe work items tomorrow’s so when it comes to the weekend, hopefully my step dad is feeling better for the work to commence again.

As I’ve watched telly today, I forgot. I didn’t register it was a Tuesday. I’m going to be productive tomorrow to have a no telly Tuesday on a Wednesday. A part of me feels that today’s telly watching wasn’t a waste as I did get the decluttering / tidying done. Although, I feel I could do more. That’ll have to wait until tomorrow as it’s now too late. I’ve written myself a to-do list for tomorrow to try distract me from thinking about watching telly.

Life, Writing

We’ve spent the day finishing painting the kitchen. Well, it’s not 100% finished. It’s about 90%.

Spending this time painting its effecting parts of my body; my shoulders ached and my fingers went numb. While writing now, my arm feels heavy and painful. It’s like my body is telling me off. My lack of exercise is making things I want and need to do hard for me.

Thankfully, I’ve taken ‘Get a Massage’ from my Get In Touch With My Body list, and Dave has agreed to give me a massage where I am aching. I’ve had massages from a professional before but right now this isn’t something I can consider.

Having Dave do them I’m also working on our connection. I don’t think it’ll hurt with working on our bedroom pleasure as well as my sensual pleasure. We’re still a long way off. I’m proud of myself for working on things, usually, I put things off. Small Steps Ahead.


Watched: Dumpling > 4 out of 5
Bird Box > 3.5 out of 5

Life

‘Words can Hurt’

My friend and I painted the undercoat for the kitchen. It took us 4 hours to complete the whole 9 foot high walls and ceilings. I was proud of what we had done.

But that was overshadowed of feeling put down by my mum when I got home. The simple words of ‘is that it’ hurt me.

Getting shot down by what I’ve done as its not good enough for someone else. I get excited by buying something for the house and it’s not the priority.

When Dave said he missed the bus home I said I’d come to get him. I felt safe to cry in the car. On the way back he didn’t ask me what was wrong. He didn’t ask until we were home when I’m guessing he noticed something was wrong. He quickly redeemed himself by saying the right things and giving me hugs.

Words can hurt, more so when said a certain way.

Life

‘No Bad Energy’

My time as community care worker has now come to an end. A chapter of my life is closing, ready for a new one to start. Leading to new adventures ahead.

I feel today was a good day. I’ve no bad energy about it. I woke very early, at twenty to 5. After 20 minutes I gave up trying to fight my wife awakeness. I got up, scheduled some posts and created a new page; here I’ve put my yearly theme and goals together.

After I did my last hour of work, I got some washing done and started mileage. I finally after a week, walked the dogs, which meant I ticked off all 3 of my small action goals. I think an idea for me would be do choose 1 or 2 steps towards my quarterly goals to do each week to get me in the habit to mindfully achieve them.

I spent most of the day watching telly I had this on while doing the mileage. I find it a boring endless task, that needs doing. So I was trying to do it alongside something I enjoyed to make it more manageable. It does make it easier to do, I just don’t do it for long.

I’ve a plan for tomorrow; to paint the kitchen undercoat, measure the wall for the mantel shelf and start taking the cellar ceiling down. That’s 3 steps to make our house a home. I have to work on doing them in a day not taking a week to do it.

Life

A New Job Chapter Ahead

Tomorrow I have my last call in my community care worker position. Just having one call, makes today feel like it’s my last day. I am over the moon. It’s just over 2 years I’ve been in this job. It’s had its good times but the frustrations of it caused them to be over shadowed.

In 11 days time I’ll start my new adventure. My aim for the break in between is to get shit done and rest some.