Life, Mental Health, Relationship, Writing

2 Hours Later – I Need to Accept Change More

I had a period of low mood this evening. Dave said he’d be home by 4pm so we could spend the evening together. When 4pm rolled around there was no sign of Dave.

In the end, he was home by 6pm. The dogs and I ended up walking to met him and walked back together.

We still had a lovely evening together. I guess I felt disappointed as I was looking forward to spending quality time together, which did happen but no as I had seen it in my head.

Change of plans is something I need to accept more of.


Watched: Die Another Day > 4 out of 5

Life, Relationship, Writing

I’m Talking Work + Missing Dave

I love helping people. I’m glad I do it for my job. What I’m finding difficult is the travelling. It makes the weeks longer as my work hours are doubles because of the travelling.

Now that my NVQ has finished that’s not holding me back. I could start looking for a job but I don’t want to jeopardise the house buying. I’ve been doing the job 18 months; an extra month or two isn’t gonna hurt.

I feel more like I’m in the right job mind wise then a few months ago. I was ready to walk even with my NVQ happening. If and when I do leave my current job for the next challenge; it’ll be the customers that I miss.

I’m talking work as that’s all I’ve done today. Not exciting reading I know but not all people can lead exciting lives 24/7.

Whether happy, sad, moaning or my best piece yet. I’m gonna still write.


Dave stayed at his parents last night. When we weren’t living together, I found I didn’t really miss him at times. But I’m missing him more now we live together. I feel I am on the right path with him.

Well, it is a good job seeing as we’re buying a house together.

Life, Relationship, Writing

Time Together

Today was the first day where both of us weren’t working for a while; not annual leave. It was nice to be able to have the time together plus do our own thing and know tomorrow we can do the same. Where usually we’d have work the next day.

I also felt I could go around to D and R’s for a film, getting home later. We did have to wake the whole house up to get back in as someone locked an extra door so we couldn’t get in.

All in all, it’s been a lovely day. I’m glad the weather is as nice.

Life, Relationship, Writing

Living Together a Month

It’s certainly a waiting game now. Especially with yesterday being one after another. We’ve sorted out the surveyor for the house.

As I was in the mood for sorting out, I finally booked my car in for its recall appointment and got around to changing more addresses. We’ve been living together a month now. It feels like we have forever. It’s been so natural to us.

Tomorrow is my last NVQ observations. Not sure it’ll be the last for my knowledge questions but the end is near.

Friendships, Life, Mental Health, Relationship, Writing

I want my writing to be about honesty

I’m having a moment of feeling, well I can’t say left out, like the lack of inclusion. The feeling like I’m missing out.

There’s a gathering at our mates this evening. Here’s me writing this while in bed, when all are having fun. I’ve been home from work an hour, due to go to bed shortly so I can get up for my morning work.

I’ve felt that tiredness like I’ve got a weight on my head but no obvious reason for having so. Maybe, unconsciously it’s because of the feeling I know now. Knowing Dave has gone and stayed with his parents so not to disturb me and the dogs coming home in the middle of the night.

I’m glad he’s being thoughtful and not wanting to disturb me. At the same time, it’s the the first night since moving in together where we’re not gonna be beside one another. I know I’m being a soppy person.

I’m not comfortable being affectionate in public. I seem fine with a pen and paper. I’m just being honest in my feelings. That’s what I want my writing to be about; Honesty.

 

Events, Family, Goals, Life, Relationship

I want our big day to feel right

We went to a wedding open day at a venue close to home today. Before going I had in my head that I don’t want my wedding in a marquee but this one impressed me. It had that indoor vibe rather than a tent popped up.

This venue (The Holmefield Arms) has turned out to be a real contender. The only doubt about it is about disabled access to the ceremony room. This could make or break this as a possibility.

I liked this one over The Rodgerthorpe one we saw last month at a fayre. The disadvantage to that venue is the numbers. Think I’ll keep my eye out for an open day so we can see a set up for the wedding space.

Even though we decided we’re gonna get married in 2021. We’re unable to book a venue. I’m glad we’re looking as we’re able to take our time looking around. I can get a feel for the places without having to rush to make a decision and have that doubt behind my choice.

I want our big day to feel right in all ways.


Watched: Peter Rabbit > 4 out of 5
Keeping up with the Jones > 4 out of 5
The Colony (2015) > 3 out of 5

Life, Mental Health, Relationship, Travel, Writing

The Hepworth Gallery

Having the day to ourselves, we decided to go out. We had a plan to go to Knaresborough to do the treasure trail we have. With the wind and the sky looking grey we decided to do that on a nicer day.

The weather didn’t stop us going out. We decided to be tourists close to home. We went to The Hepworth Gallery, Wakefield. Free entry. Lovely artwork. I fell in love with one. For the life of me, I cannot remember the name of the artist. It was called ‘The Problem with Humans’.

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It made me smile and my eyes light up. We took our time walking around, saw the latest exhibition that ended today.

Before we went, I said that once we’ve been we don’t have to go again. Although that is true. After going today, I’d love to go again.

We’ve noted the dates for the next exhibition Feb-June and are planning to go see it when we’re able. Maybe on a rainy day like today. Despite the weather, we still decided to park in a free car park 20 minutes walk away. One it saved us parking money. Two it got us doing our walk for the day.

One of the things I took from today’s outing is that just because I believe something isn’t for me or I won’t like it, doesn’t mean that’s the case. I thought going to the art gallery wouldn’t be for me at all. But we both enjoyed it and would like to go again.

It’s like that little insight telly me that I shouldn’t judge or have a negativity mindset going into things. Just be in the moment and take what’s around me in at the time.


Watched: The Maze Runner: The Death Curse > 4 out of 5