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Q1 Review 2019

The first quarter of 2019 has had its ups and downs. The downs seem to be the way through these days. There have been relationship complications of where I’ve fallen out of love and I’m unsure I want to carry on with the relationship. I’m trying everything I can to see if any feelings will come back. Then there has been the health issues of my grandparents which is ongoing; it isn’t gonna end anytime soon.

When I sat down and reviewed this quarter with The Holiday Council this is what came about:

I’m not being the woman I want to be to the fullest. I’ve been frustrated, trapped and felt I’m not feeling the feelings that I should do.  I haven’t been feeling peaceful or finding pleasure in the things I do. I’ve been bold and open in how I have been feeling especially when it’s potentially changing everything that’s been in the pipeline over the last year.

Don’t get me wrong I’ve had ups this quarter. I’ve started a new job, had time spent with my friends. I’ve been to a strongman event and been on holiday to Rome.

Because of the challenges in my relationship; we’ve cancelled the wedding. I’ve learnt I can’t live my life as settling with what I’ve got. I need to be happy with every area.

I’ve honoured my ways of being; bold, evolve and open in parts. With my theme Bloom, I feel I’m at the area on setting my roots before I’m set to Bloom into the open. I haven’t had the feeling of pleasure in my daily life but I’ve felt it in dancing to music and having my nail done.

The two quarter one goals haven’t been accomplished but they are underway. I’ve been able to tick off some of the checklist items over the past few months. The house is getting to the point of being liveable but it’s currently up in the air to whether I will enjoy the space. With inhibiting my body I have found I am comfortable with dancing to music and having my nails done.

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I feel for quarter 2 I’m craving myself being happy. To get myself to focus on me and to ensure I’m going down the right path. Due to this, I’ve decided on the following two goals:

  1. Get out of the house
  2. Realign with myself and my space

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Both are maintenance goals but with where I am right now in my life, it is something I need to focus on. I’ve put them on my board with some action items to include in my life. I’m also using The Happiness Planner to see if I learn something while completing that too. With me focusing on myself, I hope quarter 2 helps me find the answers I’m looking for.

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Big 3 Goals for 2019

Week 3 of HoCo is near an end. I’ve only just started but I feel I’ve got a lot done from this weeks call considering that I wasn’t ready for it yesterday. To tell the truth I don’t think I was 100% ready today. I’ve had some goals running around my head for the last few days. I think that’s what’s spurred me on a bit to complete the call.

After a couple of hours, I’ve come up with my 3 goals:

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All three connect to my theme and ways of being. From these, I’m hoping 2019 will be my year for growth and destruction! I’m not finished all of week 3 as yet, I’ve still got the challenges, guest interviews but also I need to sit and think of my 2 quarterly goals for Q1.

I feel one should be to do with my house; get to the point where I can move in by the end of the quarter. Another I feel could be with related with learning to inhabit my body, possibly to find small ways/activities that I can start trying out to see what I think. Wait, stop, I’ve set the goal to get out of my head meaning think is the wrong word. To see what I feel and take from the new experiences.

I believe I’ve found a blog post of 20 ways to get in touch with my body. I might give them a try.

I now have my NVQ certificates. It’s taken a long 6 months, more hard work then the qualification itself. But they are now in my possession. One thing less I now have to think about. I guess my goal of Getting Shit Done is happening.


Watched: The Christmas Prince: A Royal Wedding > 4 out of 5

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Vision Board 2019

With today’s No Telly Tuesday, I’ve been determined to Get Shit Done. I’ve done 3 more BSL Video Series posts. I’m now set up until Feb 2019. If I have some more on a role day like today I’ll get it finished by the end of the year. All will be done ready for publishing in 2019. Then that is a goal that can be checked off my list.

I’ve printed off my vision collage and started my 2019 board.

Once I’ve finished week 3 of HoCo I should have 3 goals for the year to add plus I’ll then have to decide on my quarterly goals too.

I know there are 3 weeks left of 2018 but I’m ready for the new year. I’m feeling the determination. I just hope it doesn’t make my mind wired for bedtime.

I got a few more to-dos done. We’re all set now for our Rome holiday in March. I just have to figure out where I’d like to visit and holiday money.

I’ve now 12 more work days until I finished my current job. I’m feeling positive about the future.

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Theme and Ways of Being for 2019

The past two years of completing HoCo, there’s been one workbook page I’ve struggled to complete. This year hasn’t been any different. The, where do I feel… And who do I need… prompt page is still a mind black.

Even that being the case I have finished week 2 worksheets. Meaning I am happy with my theme for 2019 and my ways of being. These are:

Theme: BLOOM

> Come into my full self in a beautiful and healthy way “Bloom Bright”

Ways of Being:

1. Pleasure

> Have a happy satisfaction and enjoyment in what I do. Give and receive sexual enjoyment.

2. Peaceful

> Free from overwhelm, frustration, bad habits, guilty feelings. Have a sense of peace within me.

3. Open

> Don’t put restrictions on myself. Accept changes and new ideas. No secrets. Be upfront and to the point.

4. Evolve

> Develop gradually in my new starts, learning and inner work.

5. Bold

> Take risks, be confident, courageous, free from fear and my thoughts stopping me from living my dreams.

Now all I have left are the week 2 challenges. One is to make a vision board that relates to my theme and ways of beings. I’ve just read the second to realise I’ve completed; to finalise my theme and ways of being. I better get creating, then week 2 is complete.


Watched: Wreak it Ralph 2 > 2 out of 5

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HoCo Week 2 Call Thoughts

I believe I have my theme for 2019 and my ways of being. But I want to make 100% sure I’m ready before I publish them. Week 2 call asked new questions about what it is time for right now in our life and the different slices. Here are my thoughts from them:

I want to be me to the fullest. Be true to my dreams and heart. I bailed my time, my family, my loved ones, the experiences around me. I value my kindness and to the point process. I want others to treat me the way I want myself to be seen. I deserve respect and kindness back to me.

I want to feel calm, the senses of growing/learning about myself and the world around me. Seeing the different lives/ways of living that there is. Being streamlined to stop feeling overwhelmed, the frustration. Letting go of the shoulds and musts of getting this or that that done.

I’m craving the sun on my face, the wind in my hair, the rain on my skin, laughter and uninterrupted happiness. I want to believe in myself, my confidence, my skills and achievements. I want to feel comfortable in my own body and take away caring what others think of me.

When I looked at the different slices of life I came up with things I might want to work on in 2019. Such as; really connecting with Dave, moving into our house, starting my new job and figuring out where I want to go. A community with my blog and being comfortable in my body.

But why can’t I have what I want?

Because I’m currently in a state of overwhelm, frustration and losing myself.

Because I care what others thing of me and my actions. Making me feel I’m going over the top. Then there’s financial restraints and believing in myself and my confidence.

Because I have old beliefs such as I am unable to do what I want, not experienced enough, having the knowledge, that I’m not good enough. I should be doing what others expect of me.

The main part of the call that ultimately got me to my theme was my future visualisation. During this visualisation I felt at peace, a sense of calmness and that everything is in its tight place.

I was in my new home, pretty much complete. Knowing where everything was, with no clutter. I had a bright aura around me. I looked happy and healthy. Then I turned into a sunflower but could still see me. I was shining brightly. My future self gave me a silver infinity necklace.

With all that from week 2 call I feel I’m on the right path. I’m gonna do some more work on week 2 then I should know if I’ve chosen what feels right to me for my theme and ways of being.

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Week 2 of HoCo Guest Interview Thoughts

Week 2 of HoCo is Dreaming and Scheming for the new year. The live call isn’t available to me until tomorrow but I’ve got access to the guest interviews.

From the 1st interview with Cora Harrington, I ended up writing 2 sides of A4 notes. Little snippets of what I took from Cora that related to me. Self-care was one of the things she spoke about.

Having the work-life balance in order to take care of herself. Having that as a maintenance lifestyle. With all that’s going on in my life lately, it’s something I need to get back on track with.

I have to allow for giving and taking. I am allowed to give my time to others and to work with all other life happenings. But I have to ensure that I take back time for myself. Disconnect from everyone and technology around me for wet times to allow myself me-time I deserve.

The world isn’t going to fall to pieces if I don’t respond right away or not tick off something from my task list. I don’t have to post on Facebook or check in daily. Ultimately my time is mine and it’s down to me on how I spent it.

As well as self-care, I need to express what I want out of life to those close to me. Have that close-knit circle of friends that I can talk to. They can help me better myself. They might say I can do better then what I’ve already done I have to take this as a compliment, they think I can rise up to the occasion. It’s a thank you moment. I shouldn’t be afraid to tell them about my drama. Those that shoot me down or want me to stay where I am to suit their conformable then I don’t need them in my life. I don’t have space for those who aren’t going to support and encourage me to live my dreams. I don’t need a big circle. They might be being realistic, which isn’t necessarily negative. They might see a structure I haven’t in order to get me to my dreams.

I also need to know what I’m good at and ask for help with the things I’m not good at. I can’t be amazing at everything. Someone else can do/ help with those things to get me there.

While listening to this first interview I turned my phone into silent to try work on one task at a time, to prevent distraction. I felt I did a lot better than last week and paused it twice. I felt I got more out of the interview. That’s also what I did with the second interview; only pausing once.


The second interview with Erin Falconer I liked because she spoke about getting shit done. With that being my quarterly goal, I felt more compelled to listen.

What am I guilty of doing?

Giving my focus to everyone and thing around me causing me to have self-indulgent and guilty behaviour. Doing things for others to be liked or because I feel guilty if I didn’t give them my time. Erin spoke of only having so much personal resource; cut this behaviour out and be and do with others as you’d want from them.

The other thing I took from the interview is what Erin said about our perception of things and how can plan for things in life. There are times where I take the things that come up in life negatively. It’s ME.

I’m the one who chooses to see the situation. I cannot control half of the things in life but I do get to chose what they mean to me. So why not choose the most helpful/positive view of the situation. See it as a gift, not the worse thing that’s happened to me.

I can review these feelings as for how my energy is feeling. I can do this in daily life too. I can ask myself what’s my energy like? Am I exhausted or is it intact?

Lately with how I’ve been seeing things I’ve become overwhelmed and exhausted causing my energy levels to drop. This isn’t a sustainable way of living. By doing this, checking-in, I can get a handle on what really matters to me. That way I can do more of the things that make me happy and less of everything else. Cause why else would I want to do it? If I don’t want to celebrate something; goal related or the big things in life, do I really want to do it?

The celebration helps to keep energy levels up or acknowledging the small things along the way. I will have to get comfortable with “bragging” about things. This week is about planning for the new year ahead. Can I plan if I don’t really fully understand who I am and where I want to go in life?

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What would make 2019 meaningful?

When I think of 2019 being meaningful or magical I think moving into our new home would make it such a year. moving into our own home isn’t just a big commitment to each other it also symbolises freedom to me. Giving me the physical and mental space to allow me to explore who I am as a person without being under a parents roof.

That is now only months away. But that hasn’t stopped me trying to be the person I want to be. Working through The Holiday Council allows me to really think about what I’m doing and what I am doing to help me get there for the new year. There were some big changes this year and I know some a due in the new year. Being the strong person I know I can be, working on my self should be a walk in the park.


Watched: The Dark Knight > 2.5 out of 5