Body Fights Back

I feel my body is fighting me. My legs haven’t stopped twitching since August. My tiredness hasn’t improved. My hip and lower back are intermittently aching. I find it hard to get comfy.

I’ve started to link my stomach aches and unusual bowel movements to times when I have milk or chocolate. Can you become lactose intolerant part way through life?

I booked an appointment to see my doctor to discuss it all. Just have to wait a couple of weeks. I’m gonna check for cancellations regular now I’m signed up for the online system.

Week Off Goes Quick

Time is going quickly. We’re on day 5 of our week off. Half way through and relaxing is hard on annual leave. When we’re trying to relax I get antsy. I can’t sit still. I keep checking my phone or an app even though I’ve no need to.

I don’t feel as stressed. I have calmed down. I’ve put my work and goals to one side to do what we want to do. My fear of time is coming back to haunt me. My mind won’t rest.

My patience is getting worse. So is my spending. I’ve even had chocolate the past 4 days. I feel that is affecting me. Tiredness in full swing.

I’ve 4 days left before I go back to work. I want to enjoy myself. Stop haunting me time.

Happy Anniversary

3 years together. It seems longer but at the same time I can’t it’s been this long. If you’ve been with me from the start, you may know I was having loss of connections in my life. Including with Dave.

Our connection being a major part of how I was seeing our relationship. Communication and honesty has been a great thing in my life and our relationship. We’re stronger and I open up about everything with him.

I believe he’s started to open up with me as well. There are times when I feel he’s holding something back. It maybe just me being paranoid. He hasn’t been one to express emotion in the past so anything is great for him.

We’ve had a lovely anniversary. We’ve been doggie sitting so we walked them, got muddy and had to bath them. We spent time in front of the telly. Been watching my guilty pleasure, I’m a celebrity.

We then watched a James Bond film. A confession: before this year I had only watched Daniel Craig 007. Well, 2017 has brought them to me. Today, we watched number 11: Moonraker. I’m getting half way through.

I feel this needs to be on my goal list. To watch all Bond films. I’m sure there are many other films I haven’t watched before either.

Are there any films you think I should watch? Old or new?

If I haven’t see it I’ll put it on my goal list.


Anyway, back to the post. I couldn’t be without Dave. He’s such a chilled, kind, amazing guy. He’s supportive and would try to do anything for me. I love him. Bring on another year together 😘

Cooking Day

Cooking has been my theme for the day. I really enjoyed it and learnt new things. My first spell in the kitchen was with my mum baking. I made buns, a cake and mince pies.

I’d never made mince pies before. It was interesting to learn. I myself don’t like them but Dave does. So it’ll be nice to make them for him in the future.

My next spell in the kitchen was making a Pork and Apple one pot. It was gorgeous. The flavours were amazing. I really enjoyed cooking from scratch. It does take me longer to make then the times stated in the cook books. Dave helped to prep. It was nice to spend the time together.

Our friends left happy, which was great. See what we come out with tomorrow.

Family Day

We had a day of family. We saw Dave’s sister and the kids. Which meant I met baby nephew. He’s so cute. I’ve now met all 3 of the family newcomers for 2017.

We then saw my grandparents. More for car maintenance. But my grandad showed me how to check my tire pressure and I pumped up my tire for the first time. It seem to have held. Tomorrow it’ll get a tire check all round before garage opens Monday. Just in case new tires are needed.

In August I put on my glance for the month to visit my brother and family. That didn’t happen but today it did. We had a lovely catch up. Dave got to see their place.

A nice relaxing evening in when we got home. During this week holiday I’d like to restore from my burning out.

2 am Hour

It’s currently 2:19 am. I’m laid here in the dark, screen brightness low to prevent Dave waking. This time last night I was finally able to get to sleep. Now, I’m wide awake.

Since having this cold I haven’t been able to sleep properly. I wish I knew why. I am hoping writing this out will help me process or at least take-up some time. May make me tired.

My 1st December went ok. Wrapped up some presents. Put out my new Christmas decorations in my room. Usually I would insert a picture of these here. But seeing as it’s 2:31am I will wait for another time to show you.

I’m looking forward to Christmas this year. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve enjoyed it previously but I feel more of a family connection now then I did on Christmases growing up.

To me Christmas is about family. Spending time together. Enjoying each others company. I have an idea in my head of how I’d like Christmas to be for our kids when we decide to have them.

We also put up a scratch the world poster quite clearly of the world. I want to use this as our travel map. Where we’ve been we can scratch off to show our travels. Dave and I have been to Isle of Wight, Lake Windermere and Barcelona together.

It will be difficult to scratch off those off to begin with. I’ve decided seeing as I’ve currently got the map in a frame that I’ll use the frame to mark where we’ve been until we can scratch a good section off.

Think it’s the perfectionist in me. I don’t want to ruin it. This travel map, I’m hoping to help with my dream of traveling the world. Unless I start playing the lottery in order to win it, we’ll be saving to have holidays away every so often as our traveling.

2018 is already starting to become a busy year. Which means expensive. But experiences to look forward to. Not all are set in stone. Most so far are in the talking stage. But I hope they do become so.

I wanna stop saying let’s do this or we should book that and it not happen. Well, it’s now 2:51 I’m gonna see if I’m able to get some sleep now.

Where ever you are, whatever you’re doing. I hope your enjoying yourself.

Time off Work

When I left work at 12:15 today, it began my 9 day annual leave. I’m so glad it’s begun. Last time I had time off was back in July. The same time I started this blog and my birthday month.

I took a risk and got my hair cut to my shoulders. Over the past year, I’ve slowly been getting it shorter. This time I just said cut it. I’m glad I did. I really like it. What do you think?

This evening, it’s been my friend G’s birthday meal. We went to a restaurant I’d never been to before. It was nice to try it out and spend time with good friends.

Boy, was it expensive. I believe the 50/30/20 rule isn’t gonna fit to my wages this month. I’m still saving. It’s the essential/lifestyle parts I haven’t got to grips with. I’m not gonna stop trying. I’ll get there. It has started to get me to think where my income is going and my relationship with it.