Do you Trust your Gut Feeling?

When I first saw the house we’re buying I knew straight away this was our house. I didn’t know how I knew. It just felt right. I could see us living there enjoying our life. I knew deep down that this house was meant for us.

Even with knowing the house needed gutting and not having the money to do the work. I always came back to it. Looking for other houses wasn’t the same. When my mum and step-dad decided to help in ways they could, the house becoming ours was becoming a reality.

Now weeks away from getting the keys this feeling hasn’t changed. I’ve trusted my gut and had faith in my desire.

Thinking back I cannot remember feeling this way about something. I’ve come to find I’ve started things and stopped. Never finishing. Relying on others to give me the answers to what I should do.

Were they warning signs?

Should I have narrowed down my input?

I need to source my own answers. Believe in any warning signs. Trust my gut and have faith in any future endeavours.


The End of Q2 Review

Wow, we are halfway through 2018. Time is going quickly. Whatever you do, make the most of your time.

The Past 6 Months 

I am on the road to being the woman I want to be. I do have selfish moments, where I become lazy and expect others to do things for me. I’m becoming calmer in myself but still, have those rush days. I’m taking more control of my life and experiences.

I have been incorporating my theme of the year, Joy, into my life more in this first half of the year. I have been having experiences, having time with loved ones and getting shit done.

But being with family has had its challenges. Family is what get each other through. We need to be there for one another, things have been changing rapidly. Seeing my grandma decline quickly has been the hardest part for me over the past 6 months.

The Next 6 Months

I am craving couple independence. Being deliberate and limitless with our home. Getting it right for us. I am craving calm. Being able to be comfortable with silences and having nothing planned. But I also wanna knock things off the to-do-list.

To make sure I am recommitted to my yearly theme of Joy; I need to choose what I want to focus on now. Then only focus on those as a priority. But also take time for me and as a couple.

I think the best way of doing this is to plan only part of my time. Things come up and cause me to rush and stress. I need to focus on one or two things and not try doing everything all at once. I need to continue with my monthly review, see what I am doing and if I’m still on the right track.

Blackboard Tasks

I feel the following are those I need to focus on in the next quarter:

  • CBT Course
  • BSL Blog Series
  • Loving my Body
  • Have my Hair done
  • Have a Home
  • Day Trips

Quarter 3 Goals

  1. Make Our Home Ours

Being in the process of buying our first home. I want this quarter to be focusing on making it ours. It needs a full gutting; a lot of work doing to it. I want this to be in support of having a welcoming home to come back to and have our couple independence.

I would like our home to be liveable by Christmas 2018.

2. BSL Blog Series Set Up

This is another goal on my dreams page. Setting this BSL series up is getting out of my comfort zone. Having videos of myself completing signs to hopefully teach others. I have 3 done so far. But as I have set up for the series to start next week I have some work to do.

I would like it all to be set up by the end of the quarter ready for it to be published through the next few quarters.

Past 6 Month Reviews

March – End of Quarter 1

Do you have Core Values?

During my life coaching course, having values and beliefs has been one of its topics. I’ve thought about my own before when doing The Joy Equation with Molly Mahar.

These Core Values were:

Balance: have control, things spilt easily – family, work, friends, love, life. never stressing about getting everything done.

Connection: concentrate. meet up with friends and family. open up to them.

Radiance: share the love. be who I am on the inside; outside. be fun, warm, loving.

Acceptance: accept who I am. those who need to/for me to be someone else have to accept me for me or else I don’t need them in my life. accept the situations I am in.

Simplicity: only have, do, concentrate, on the things that matter. do not have to do what is not needed

Laughter: do the things I love. spend time with family and friends. be outside.

Adventure: do things I enjoy. be outside. travel the world. go exploring. learn to do new things. get out of my comfort zone.

Health: Look after me. eat healthily. exercise. enjoy life.

I figured out these core values. I made a mini collage of them.

What did I do with these values once I finalised them?

Put them away in my trunk.

I’m not living in synch with my values there am I?

I’m not going to be rewarded with joy, integrity and ease. I’m not gonna live life through them if I don’t have them in sight daily.

These core values were created nearly a couple of years ago now.

When completing my Life Coaching Course I wrote the following to be the values I wanna live by:

I want to live with integrity and authenticity. I want ot have the values of creativity, laughter and balance in my life.

Comparing the two, laughter and balance, are the two words that show up in both. Although I haven’t used the rest, all the words in both still resonate with me. I have the values, but I need to live them out in my life.

What I would love is to have a collage /vision board type idea incorporating all these words to have on one of the walls I’d see each day in the house when it’s completed. Knowing this I have the time to really find and create the perfect one for me.

Having this up and seeing will remind me of my values. This doesn’t necessarily mean I’ll live by the values but I can’t think this way. Seeing it daily will allow me to think positively. The words and the feelings I got from them will bubble in me.

Having a good feeling will help me live by my values. Which in term will show the difference in how I live, doing what I want. Living my life authentically.

I’ve been able to make a little collage with pictures that I believe represent my values. I’ve so far only been able to find something that will allow only 16 photos to make one. Then I haven’t been able to find somewhere that can print it off as yet.


My Post

A Little Under the Weather

Two more working days to go before our annual leave starts. It’ll be good to recuperate. I’ve got that lovely cold, that’s going around. Plus my stomach is playing up. I’ve an embarrassing problem on top of that.

I’ve a blood test next week, an ultrasound scan to book and I’m to have my urine dipped.

I’m sat here wanting to crawl into bed and not get out again.

Maybe that’ll get it all better?

Nah, didn’t think so.

House update: Apparently the vendor solicitors have sent over the draft contract and something else, I can’t remember the name of, but still wanting for property information forms. They’ve started. I just have to wait a little longer.

I just hope I sleep tonight, better than the last. It took me a long time to fall asleep. I even gave up and read my book at one point. It’s not a thrilling book, maybe that’s what’s helping me sleep?

Tomorrow is another day. It’ll be a new start. Let’s hope I’ll be able to breathe through my nose.


Do you embrace your emotions?

Being positive can be hard some days. Everyone may say we need to be positive all the time.

I say we don’t.

I say we need to be ourselves.

Be honest.

There are days when shit hits the fan. Having a positive outlet may or may not help the situation.

There are times:

When anger will bubble inside of us.

When we need to let those tears fall.

When no matter what happens the smile cannot be removed from our faces.

We need to feel our emotions. We need to take responsibility for any consequences that come from acting on our emotions.

Emotions will have a butterfly effect on our lives. Also on those around us.

Feeling our emotions or not will make a huge difference to our mental health. Closing them away, locking up and throwing away the key will only delay the inevitable.

The good, the bad, the ugly. Our emotions need to be felt, be dealt with and overcome.  They are a big part of what makes us, us.

We need to be kind to ourselves.

They will always be within us.

We are not alone.

Please love yourself.

Please feel your emotions.

Please talk, write or create your way through them.

Please don’t run away from your emotions.

Embrace them. 

Demi Lovato Concert

OMG! What a night!

I’ve laughed, cried, danced and sang my heart out. All thanks to Demi Lovato concert in Manchester with my best mate, E.

I’ll be surprised if I have a voice in the morning. But it was worth it. I’d do it all again.

Below is all the photos I took, as I wanted to be in the moment, enjoy every moment of it.

I 100% did.

When she’s next back in town, I’d love to go again.

Forgetful Mind

I was forgetful. I forgot about renewing my library books. Usually, I’m very good at knowing it needs doing. But even with it noted in my diary, it slipped my mind. I remembered 20 minutes after the deadline. Penalty charges for me.

I’m glad I now have 2 days off.

I get to refresh my mind.