Life, Mental Health, Relationship, Travel, Writing

The Hepworth Gallery

Having the day to ourselves, we decided to go out. We had a plan to go to Knaresborough to do the treasure trail we have. With the wind and the sky looking grey we decided to do that on a nicer day.

The weather didn’t stop us going out. We decided to be tourists close to home. We went to The Hepworth Gallery, Wakefield. Free entry. Lovely artwork. I fell in love with one. For the life of me, I cannot remember the name of the artist. It was called ‘The Problem with Humans’.

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It made me smile and my eyes light up. We took our time walking around, saw the latest exhibition that ended today.

Before we went, I said that once we’ve been we don’t have to go again. Although that is true. After going today, I’d love to go again.

We’ve noted the dates for the next exhibition Feb-June and are planning to go see it when we’re able. Maybe on a rainy day like today. Despite the weather, we still decided to park in a free car park 20 minutes walk away. One it saved us parking money. Two it got us doing our walk for the day.

One of the things I took from today’s outing is that just because I believe something isn’t for me or I won’t like it, doesn’t mean that’s the case. I thought going to the art gallery wouldn’t be for me at all. But we both enjoyed it and would like to go again.

It’s like that little insight telly me that I shouldn’t judge or have a negativity mindset going into things. Just be in the moment and take what’s around me in at the time.


Watched: The Maze Runner: The Death Curse > 4 out of 5

Goals, Life, Writing

Changing Goals

I’ve had a look at a couple of my goals today:

  1. Relaxation Techniques
  2. Slow my breathing down to 10 breaths a minute

On my blackboard, I have these as Relaxation and Breathing. I stood there and looked at them. Saying the words to myself and thought; they’re just words!

I breathe daily. If I didn’t I wouldn’t be writing this right now. I relax by watching telly, reading etc.

It occurred to me that these goals aren’t right for me. They need changing. Over the last couple of weeks, I’ve tried a few calming/mindfulness/meditation apps. I found these helped with my breathing and relaxation. I’ve also got back into yoga a little. That helps me with my breathing. I feel relaxed afterwards.

After a little thought, I’ve come to find 2 new goals to replace the above, that resonate with me more:

  1. Develop a meditation practice
  2. Develop a yoga practice

I believe this gives me more of a guidance to allow me to work on them, step by step. Looking for my goals I do believe they connect with a couple others. I’ll have a think about those, see if I wanna make changes.


Watched: The hitman’s bodyguard > 4 out of 5

Life, Writing

A Little Expense to be able to Communicate

It’s been 72 hours since my phone purchase receipt request. I was told it would be with me within 48 hours. As I still haven’t received it and the box has arrived from the manufacturer. I contacted the phone shop again.

This time I was told it should have been said that for a handset only receipt it’ll take at least 14 days. Wow, working that out it could be 3 and half weeks before I get an answer on my phone and get it back.

So, I’ve gone out an bought a cheap phone I can put my sim into. I can be in contact with friends and family and not feel so isolated. Plus with the nature of my job and me on the road. I’d feel better-having something with me to help in case of an emergency.

Borrowing the works mobile doesn’t allow me this. Now I’m gonna be able to hand works mobile back. Not have to worry about causing that to break. Which if I did they’ll take money from my wages.

February, well, 2018 has been an expensive one so far, I don’t wanna cause more outgoings then necessary. Certainly gonna work on reducing my spending.


Watched: Bright > 2.5 out of 5.

Goals, Life, Writing

Making a Difference?

I care about people. I care about the world I live in. I care what I do to cause a ripple effect. Whether I’m doing good or bad. I want it to be good all the time. I’m not a saint, I’ve done bad things in my life so far.

I don’t wanna keep living that way. I wanna make a difference. A difference to one person. To another. To my community. To where my heart is. To the world around me.

That is a big ask of myself.

How is small, unknowledgeable me going to achieve something as huge as that?

I may be small in size but I have a big heart, strength and ambition. I may not be knowledgeable in that area but I have knowledge. I have to begin somewhere. I’ve set myself an ambition, a challenge to make a difference.

I may not know the exact path I’m gonna walk. One step at a time, I’ll be on that path to my goal. Following the journey, I’m excited, scared, amazed at myself to discovery. If I can make a difference in one person’s life. How many will they make a difference to?

Every action or non-action has a ripple effect on life, on the universe in my opinion. I want mine to be positive, to enlighten others.

Life, Writing

Early Mornings and Phone Update

Usually when I wake up early, at a reasonable time, before my alarm. I try to make myself go back to sleep. There are times I need to. There are times I do feel worse when my alarm goes off. There are times I lie awake, not having much luck getting back to sleep.

Getting frustrated with myself. In turn, effects my mood for the day. The odd occasion I stay up, do something I need to do. This morning was one of those. I was up an hour and 45 minutes before my alarm.

Putting myself first is something I neglect at times. Something I’m working on. I’m slowly getting better.

This morning I decided to do a bit more of my jigsaw puzzle. In that time I managed to complete it. Finishing a puzzle gives me a sense of achievement. Having this feeling has helped me start the day off right. Even towards the end of the day, work included.


Phone update:

Still waiting for the box to be able to send my phone to be sorted. Work has kindly offered me a temporary phone so I can still use my work app offline when I’m out and about.

But I’m unable to ring out to anybody still. Especially if there was an emergency, Think work might be interesting over the next few days.

I’ve now been able to talk to Dave through the Monster Messenger app. Basically Whatsapp for kids that parents control, to allow their kids to use it safely. It just happens to be the only thing on my tablet that will download, which we both have access to.

The joys of technology, eh!

Life, Writing

A Test from the Universe

I feel like the universe has come to test me. Last night, I said goodnight to Dave, we’re in our time apart part of our rotas, turned my phone off like any other night.

This morning wasn’t any other morning where my phone was concerned. Went to turn it on. Nope, wasn’t playing. Between me turning it off then on again it’s decided it needs recovering.

After following the steps, twice. The phone still wanted to be recovered. Before my first try finished, however, I had to leave for work. Without my phone. Before I left I had to ring on call to note I am on my calls I just won’t be tagging into them.

On arrival back and still no luck, I tried phone support. Rung the number. Busy. Had luck with the online chat. But still no luck with the phone. Thankfully my phone is still under warranty. So I have to send it to the manufacturer once their Freepost box arrives.

For the warranty to be valid I need a receipt for the purchase. Well, think this will teach me to keep receipts in the future. Rung phone shop. Busy. Online chat wins again. Fingers crossed by the time my box arrives so will my receipt.

They told me it’ll be within 8-10 days to sort my phone. 10 days without a phone! I’m sure I’ve said before I’d wonder what it would be like without a phone. My phone has given me that wish.

The only technological communication I currently have is email and monster messenger. I do have my blog. For if any of my friends are reading this, my phone should be on its way back to me. However, lovely, if you are reading this, I’m not ignoring you, I just don’t have other means to contact you.

It’ll be a test for me. But so far after 12 hours without my phone, I’m 50/50. There’s that game show again. Partly feel like I’m missing something. The other part I feel a sense of freedom.

Have you had to live without your phone or do you choose to?

 

Goals, Life

Goals are like Jigsaw Puzzles

Goals are like a jigsaw puzzle. The box shows a visual representation of what the end looks like. There to remind us each time we focus on it.

It would be great to open the box, let the pieces fall out and the puzzle be complete. The end goal realised. It’s never that easy.

Reaching the end goal leads to a path of enlightenment, gratitude, sadness, fear and all other emotions in between. No matter the end representation, each connection needs to be put together piece by piece. For the picture; the goal to form.

If goals were easy, we’d be completing them every day. Becoming a habit, to the point they’re not goals anymore.

A goal is a journey. A journey to who and what you wanna be. Don’t take the pieces for granted. It’s within you. Whatever it takes, those pieces allow learning, acceptance, sadness, laughter. Make each one count.

The end goal will arrive. It’s the journey, those small pieces that count.