Life, Goals

‘Conflicting Emotions’

My mind and my heart run through conflicting emotions. I feel or think one thing one day, then the next it could be completely different. Sometimes it stays the same. I rarely fully understand what it is I want.

I’m going through life but not fully understanding. Does it mean I’m living to the fullest or not?

Hopefully by goals for Q4 of deep down journalling and getting shit done will allow that question to be answered.


Watched: Anon > 1 out of 5

Goals, Life

My Goal of Getting Shit Done

I feel worries that I’ll call back into the habit of not doing anything. Just watching telly all the time. That I’ll daily at Getting Shit Done.

This evening I got some shit done. Mileage! The bane of my life but if I want to claim back what I can be entitled to I need to but the evidence to the Government. When the cut off date for this year came I was no way meet completing. To the point I still haven’t.

Which also means I haven’t started this current years either. Mileage is just plain boring, but it’s something shit that I need to get done.

This evening I got back into it. I made check lists for last year’s claim and made a start. I checked one of the boxes off my list.

Then I took time to relax. I think that’s where I went wrong yesterday. My mind was still wired when I went to sleep and having to leg room to move made me frustrated. I did get to sleep but woke with my right arm numb, above my head. I must move about as I don’t go to sleep with my arm there.

With my worries, and my goal to Get Shit Done. I don’t want to be hard on myself or put myself down. What I did yesterday and this evening was great. I’ve done something to get closer to my end goal. Ultimately that is the aim of Getting Shit Done.

I should be proud of myself for that. No, wait! I am proud of myself for that. I am now going to read to help turn my mind off. Get myself to sleep easier tonight.

Life, Writing

Q3 Review 2018

It’s been a good no telly Tuesday. Productive. We bought insulation for the house and decided on the paints for all but 2 rooms.

It was the Q3 review call for the Holiday Council. To begin with I tried to do it while cooking and eating dinner. I was stop starting it and wasn’t getting much of the review done. Then my parents came home so I decided to try out my mum’s new home office.

Doing it this way I was more productive, I got my review done.


I feel like I’m not being me completely. I’m being lazy. I feel guilty for not doing things I feel I should have done. I feel I’m partially being the person I want to be for my family and friends.

In the last 3 months we’ve booked our wedding venue and photographer. We’ve bought a house and getting it renovated. I’ve started my BSL video series.

The thing I’m beginning to finally accept is that I’m overwhelming myself, then I don’t do anything but what telly. Then I start to comfort eat. I do start somethings but lose interest or motivation. No matter the time or money spent, I am being more deliberate with my yes and no when it comes to work.

I think I’m embodying easefulness more into the point of laziness. I’m not doing the things I need to do or have experiences. I’m not always present in the now. Fully enjoying myself.

What I’m craving is Getting Shit Done. Check lists or step by step of goals to achieve the big goals is my aim to help me achieve Getting Shit Done.


I started this evening after my review with the BSL video series. I’ve done more posts and I’ve been making a check list of what I need to do or come back to at a later date.

I like this idea so I’m gonna try this for my every day tasks and goals too. By doing this I hope that by the new quarter, which is in the New Year, that I’ll have done most of my back log of to-dos and courses I’ve signed up for.

Life, Writing

Drowning in Plastic Documentary

I’ve just finished watching Drowning in Plastic on BBC One. I knew the oceans were coated in plastics, that marine animals were effected and that the view and our actions on daily use of plastics need to change.

But after watching this documentary, wow, I was gobsmacked and ashamed that it’s as bad as it is. There’s got to be more everyone in the world can do. Plus the large plastic companies.

The fact not everyone in the world as access to recycling and has to dump there rubbish!!

That’ll help quicker then having to wait another 7 years before there’s progress.

What actions can we take to change?

Life, Writing

‘Productive and Lazy’

I have been productive and lazy today. I read for an hour before getting out of bed. I’ve had proper meals with only the odd snack throughout the day.

Instead of using the car, we took advantage of the good weather and did jobs and shopping by walking everywhere.

I contact the gas and electric twice! So far, I believe majority of the bills are now sorted. Just the last few for when we’re living in the place.

This afternoon I’ve been watching telly. I did make dinner. It’s been nice having a mixed day. I need to keep it up. But I’m getting in my head with regards to work.

Life, Writing

‘I couldn’t sit still’

I don’t see how work expect me to stay when they give me 2 and 1/2 hours work. This meant Dave and I went to the cinema again. This time watching The King of Thieves. It wasn’t my thing really. It could be told through me not being able to sit still.

I got through it and was able to watch a film I’d seen before this evening.

When I finished work this morning that was it until Saturday evening. 3 full days spread across 4. It’ll be nice for, fingers crossed, lay ins and do sweet f.a. for 2 days.


Watched: King of Thieves > 2 out of 6

Life

‘I got my gloves out’

Autumn is on its way. Having had a lovely summer, I feel this winter is gonna be a bad one. I got my gloves out this morning to wear first thing. I was chilly.

It amazed me when I heard on the radio that some people had to defrost their cars.

I’m going well with the no telly Tuesday. I’ve started reading more in these days. Getting through books I’ve borrowed from the library. I’ve now started reading from a pile of books I was given from another carer at work so far. I’m struggling to put it down.

The electrician started today. Hopefully by the middle of next week he’ll have got through his job.

Dave and I may be able to go to the cinema again tomorrow. Let’s see what happens.


Finished Reading: The Wish List