Life, Mental Health

‘Its not something I wanna do’

I’ve had periods of ups and downs with my energy. I again struggled to get to sleep and if I woke I couldn’t get back to sleep.

I had a pick me up when Dave and I went to the animal shelter. I didn’t get chased by Blossom or the Cockerel.

We watched a film together once home and shopping was done. I feel like I’m coming down with something but don’t think that’s anything but stress.

Dave and I then went to the pantomime; Cinderella. I really enjoyed it and it took my mind off things for a while. I just hope I’m coping well rather then going further down to where I need to go back on anti-depressents. It’s not something I wanna do.

Life

Getting Closer to the New Job

I woke feeling sick and with a headache. I slept a little better but it still took me a couple hours to get to sleep. I’ve been a little sorry for myself. More so because I dreamt that my grandma died. It felt so real it was horrible to have done so. I usually just curl up in bed all day. I did do this a bit but I made myself still do some of the jobs I had to do.

We also still went to the cinema. As it turned out it helped me forget for a couple hours which took the sickness away. I’m definitely taking everything hard and stressing over it all.

I have good news that my current employer sent my reference and I’ve a time on Tuesday to go into the new place to give, hopefully the last of my documents.

Not good financially but I’ve more time on my hands next week. I’ve only been given 11 hours work. So it’ll be good in the respect I feel I need a holiday even though I’m on annual leave this week.


Watched: Gladiator > 2 out of 5

Robin Hood (2018) > 4 out of 5

Life

Behind Door Number 2

It may be the 3rd of December but I’m on the 2nd when it comes to my 12 days of Christmas Jigsaw Puzzle Advent Calendar. Yesterday was a wonderfully busy day so I didn’t get round to completing the puzzle being door number 2:

As it’s a 12 days of Christmas calender, I’m not rushing to do the next one. All 12 will be done before Christmas starts but the door number won’t be following the day of December.

Life, Relationship

Happy 4th Anniversary

Happy 4th Anniversary to us. 4 years; I cannot believe it. 2 years ago we got engaged and in 18 months we’ll be getting married. It’s been a big year for us. We’ve bought a house that we’re renovating. We’ve booked our wedding; making bigger commitments to one another.

We had a lay in. I temporarily forgot it was Tuesday and finished an episode of telly. Dave told me off and that was all the telly I watched today.

We came home after finishing puppy sitting for the in-laws, able to exchange our presents. Dave got me Noel Fitzpatrick autobiography and the Harry Potter expansion box. I got him the new Game of Thrones book.

We had a trip to the house. Need to ring the skip people as it’s still there. We also need to collect some more plaster for the plasterer. 2 bedrooms are now complete.

I also sorted out my car insurance it was up for renewal and they wanted me to pay an extra 300 a year. Not a chance.

The new job got back to me on yesterday’s replies. I think I’m gonna wait till Friday then hand my notice in. I could also cancel my notice closer to December if necessary.

I’ve spent some of the afternoon on Spyro; sods law it fucked up and lost my saved data. I had to start all over again. I have no idea what happened but anyway I got on with it and gained 16% back.

Now I’ve to finish packing and get to my grandparents, it my turn again to stay over.