Week Off Goes Quick

Time is going quickly. We’re on day 5 of our week off. Half way through and relaxing is hard on annual leave. When we’re trying to relax I get antsy. I can’t sit still. I keep checking my phone or an app even though I’ve no need to.

I don’t feel as stressed. I have calmed down. I’ve put my work and goals to one side to do what we want to do. My fear of time is coming back to haunt me. My mind won’t rest.

My patience is getting worse. So is my spending. I’ve even had chocolate the past 4 days. I feel that is affecting me. Tiredness in full swing.

I’ve 4 days left before I go back to work. I want to enjoy myself. Stop haunting me time.

NVQ Drawing to the End?

After 4 hours spend with my NVQ assessor, I’ve done 14% more with a total of 75% complete. 2 more set meetings, which she says I may finish in February rather then March/April time when I first asked if I could finish any earlier.

I’m so glad it’s been moved up a month. It’s given me that light at the end of the tunnel feeling. That early next year I can potentially look for another job and tick completion of my NVQ off my goal list.

Family Day

We had a day of family. We saw Dave’s sister and the kids. Which meant I met baby nephew. He’s so cute. I’ve now met all 3 of the family newcomers for 2017.

We then saw my grandparents. More for car maintenance. But my grandad showed me how to check my tire pressure and I pumped up my tire for the first time. It seem to have held. Tomorrow it’ll get a tire check all round before garage opens Monday. Just in case new tires are needed.

In August I put on my glance for the month to visit my brother and family. That didn’t happen but today it did. We had a lovely catch up. Dave got to see their place.

A nice relaxing evening in when we got home. During this week holiday I’d like to restore from my burning out.

2 am Hour

It’s currently 2:19 am. I’m laid here in the dark, screen brightness low to prevent Dave waking. This time last night I was finally able to get to sleep. Now, I’m wide awake.

Since having this cold I haven’t been able to sleep properly. I wish I knew why. I am hoping writing this out will help me process or at least take-up some time. May make me tired.

My 1st December went ok. Wrapped up some presents. Put out my new Christmas decorations in my room. Usually I would insert a picture of these here. But seeing as it’s 2:31am I will wait for another time to show you.

I’m looking forward to Christmas this year. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve enjoyed it previously but I feel more of a family connection now then I did on Christmases growing up.

To me Christmas is about family. Spending time together. Enjoying each others company. I have an idea in my head of how I’d like Christmas to be for our kids when we decide to have them.

We also put up a scratch the world poster quite clearly of the world. I want to use this as our travel map. Where we’ve been we can scratch off to show our travels. Dave and I have been to Isle of Wight, Lake Windermere and Barcelona together.

It will be difficult to scratch off those off to begin with. I’ve decided seeing as I’ve currently got the map in a frame that I’ll use the frame to mark where we’ve been until we can scratch a good section off.

Think it’s the perfectionist in me. I don’t want to ruin it. This travel map, I’m hoping to help with my dream of traveling the world. Unless I start playing the lottery in order to win it, we’ll be saving to have holidays away every so often as our traveling.

2018 is already starting to become a busy year. Which means expensive. But experiences to look forward to. Not all are set in stone. Most so far are in the talking stage. But I hope they do become so.

I wanna stop saying let’s do this or we should book that and it not happen. Well, it’s now 2:51 I’m gonna see if I’m able to get some sleep now.

Where ever you are, whatever you’re doing. I hope your enjoying yourself.

Time off Work

When I left work at 12:15 today, it began my 9 day annual leave. I’m so glad it’s begun. Last time I had time off was back in July. The same time I started this blog and my birthday month.

I took a risk and got my hair cut to my shoulders. Over the past year, I’ve slowly been getting it shorter. This time I just said cut it. I’m glad I did. I really like it. What do you think?

This evening, it’s been my friend G’s birthday meal. We went to a restaurant I’d never been to before. It was nice to try it out and spend time with good friends.

Boy, was it expensive. I believe the 50/30/20 rule isn’t gonna fit to my wages this month. I’m still saving. It’s the essential/lifestyle parts I haven’t got to grips with. I’m not gonna stop trying. I’ll get there. It has started to get me to think where my income is going and my relationship with it.

Monthly Review: November 2017

8:28am, 1st December. Real time post

I’m finding it hard to sum up my month of November. I spent my last day not very well. A simple cold made me pale on Wednesday night. Turned into me fainting on the kitchen floor yesterday morning. Spending the rest of the day in bed.

Sleep wasn’t my friend until 2am. I believe the caffeine in the cold and flu tablets kept me awake. I don’t drink tea or coffee so my body isn’t used to it. I did spend an hour reading though.

It’s been a couple of years since I last called in sick. It hasn’t been the best end to the month. My fainting spell caused the loss of my longest standing mug, bugs bunny “what’s up doc” is no more.

What have I achieved in November?

For a month where I’ve felt like I’ve overloaded myself, I haven’t crossed anything off my goal list. Maybe that’s why I’ve been ill. Doing too much. But I have done things towards my goals. Let’s see what my calendar shows:

  • Me Time = 5
  • Bath = 1
  • Overcoming = 3
  • Relaxation = 1
  • No Telly Days = 6
  • No Chocolate = 18
  • Breathing Techniques = 4
  • MHFA = 1
  • BSL = 2
  • CBT = 1

18 days with no chocolate. I think that’s good going.

This month felt like it went very quick for me. Did it for you? Only 1 month left of 2017. Christmas soon be here.

Life’s going quickly. Make the most of it. I know I need to. How was your November?

Quality Time + Social Media Update

It was nice to spend some quality time with Dave this evening. We made dinner. Doggies had theirs. Then we all got comfy on the sofa for a film night.

I tried to focus and enjoy the night. I only looked at my phone when it was a toilet break or between films. Usually, as soon as I hear my phone go off I pick it up.

I enjoyed the films more and the time together not turning to the phone. It’s made me more accepting, well glad is more the word, that I’ve decided social media needs a break.

Social media update: 

Now both my phone and tablet has no social media apps. I have to go on my laptop to look at Facebook. In regards to facebook. I have messaged my family members and a couple of friends my email and number who I knew didn’t have it. Still got a couple friends left for another day. 3 returned either a number or email back. Others said thank you. The ball is in their court to stay in touch once I delete Facebook.

All I’m waiting for now is the appropriate notice on my social media volunteer for my charity support. Then Bye-Bye Facebook! I have thought about doing a goodbye message a few days before. Don’t really wanna go before saying goodbye. But most I haven’t spoken to in years.

Are we still really friends?