Life, Personal Development, Stratejoy

HoCo 2018 Begins

Today’s the start of The Holiday Council with Stratejoy. I’ve done it for the past two years and feel I could continue for as long as Molly keeps registration open. This year I am going to write my responses in my journal and any reflections from outside the workbook here too. I wanna try to get the full wack of my deep journalling as possible. In three weeks time this years theme word, JOY, will be replaced with my 2019 theme word.

Week 1 Connection Challenge:

2018 has been a year of growth and taking the theme of the year more seriously. Trying to fully incorporate it into my life. Having done this more often them my year of CHERISHing is what I’m most proud of. I’ve brought JOY into my life; I’ve gone on a group holiday with Dave and friends, I’ve visited family – near and far. I’ve been saying yes to new experiences and being with others. I’ve thought more about what I’m doing in my life that brings me JOY.

When using the word surprised for 2018, I’m not sure what comes up for me. Maybe it’s that I’m still not always true to myself and still hold back on what I want to do and say. I’ve come along way in my later 20’s. But I’ve still a way to go to be me entirely. I’d like to figure out how to get myself closer to me. Aiming to know who I am to live my 30’s to the fullest. I’ve just under 3 years to get there.


The 2nd and 3rd challenges I need to think about what and how I’m gonna do them.

The activation challenge – I need to figure out where my decluttering is gonna be. What is gonna have the most impact on creating a fresh new space for the new year?

Most of our belongings are in our bedroom at my parents or in Daves old room at his parents. Then our house just comes as it is. I can’t clean that until the plasterer has finished. Back to our bedroom at my parents’ house, it is. One thing in front of me is the exercise bike my grandparents gave me. I’m mainly using it as a clothes rack. I’ve used it a few times since April, but I’ve no desire to get on it in a hurry. Being sat around isn’t enough motivation for me to get on and exercise. I’d much rather get on the yoga mat, that is currently under the bed. It’s something that keeps coming to my mind. I think I’m gonna ask my grandad about it to see what he wants to do. That can be part of my activation; I feel once it’s in our house and in one of the spare rooms, it’s just gonna be sat there gathering dust. Our room does need a good tidy. Maybe I could do this as well?

The reflection challenge – What do I want to let go of and what do I want to keep from 2018? How am I going to portray this?


If anything new comes to me following this I think I’ll write it in a reflection. I should have prompts more often. I write a lot more and on a deeper level than just how my day went.

Life, Personal Development, Stratejoy, Writing

A Mini Q4 Review 2018

This week off hasn’t felt like one to me. I love to help but I’m not feeling the way I want to. I’m tired, frustrated and just waiting to have the opportunity to have days where they are for me to do what I want 100% of the time. Because I’m putting others first, I’m not doing all that I want to do. That’s including with my goals. I started out the last quarter of the goal really well at Getting Shit Done.

I have been doing things slowly the last month or so but other things have taken over. My prioritising skills haven’t been up to scratch. I’ve done odd deep journalling. I suppose the challenge is caring for my grandparents. Having to keep my mouth closed to prevent my grandad becoming upset with us but it’s risking my grandma. We’re figuring out what we need to say with the right words.

Having this on my plate and all the other things in my life, they have taken priority and my self-care and the things I need to do are put to one side or forgotten. Joy is something I have experienced this quarter. But mainly its been put to one side also. Taking memories where I can but being fully present has been hard. Lively I have not been. I am craving calm, simplicity, freedom and streamline.

Life

Sump Pump Done

We spent most of the day at the house. We were doing the work to get the sump pump in and connected up. Dave also did the last bit of ceiling that needed to be plasterboarded. Both jobs took all day but they got done. Having put the sump pump in the cellar shouldn’t get flooded now. Meaning it should start to dry out. We have a bit to finish for the brickwork for the holes in the walls. But the main issue is resolved.

Hopefully, it will dry out then in the future we can get it all water proved and use it. Dave wants it for his man cave; whatever that means. We had the windows upstairs open to let fresh air in to help with the drying of the plaster. All bedrooms are now finished along with the bathroom. Tomorrow we need to do multiple trips to get more plaster for the plasterer to be able to carry on.

Unfortunately, during digging out the sump pump, my forehead got hit with the handle of the space. I’m a little bruised. I brushed myself off after a little cry. Gotta get on with it. It’s my turn to stay at my grandparents tonight.

Life, Mental Health

‘Its not something I wanna do’

I’ve had periods of ups and downs with my energy. I again struggled to get to sleep and if I woke I couldn’t get back to sleep.

I had a pick me up when Dave and I went to the animal shelter. I didn’t get chased by Blossom or the Cockerel.

We watched a film together once home and shopping was done. I feel like I’m coming down with something but don’t think that’s anything but stress.

Dave and I then went to the pantomime; Cinderella. I really enjoyed it and it took my mind off things for a while. I just hope I’m coping well rather then going further down to where I need to go back on anti-depressents. It’s not something I wanna do.

Life

Getting Closer to the New Job

I woke feeling sick and with a headache. I slept a little better but it still took me a couple hours to get to sleep. I’ve been a little sorry for myself. More so because I dreamt that my grandma died. It felt so real it was horrible to have done so. I usually just curl up in bed all day. I did do this a bit but I made myself still do some of the jobs I had to do.

We also still went to the cinema. As it turned out it helped me forget for a couple hours which took the sickness away. I’m definitely taking everything hard and stressing over it all.

I have good news that my current employer sent my reference and I’ve a time on Tuesday to go into the new place to give, hopefully the last of my documents.

Not good financially but I’ve more time on my hands next week. I’ve only been given 11 hours work. So it’ll be good in the respect I feel I need a holiday even though I’m on annual leave this week.


Watched: Gladiator > 2 out of 5

Robin Hood (2018) > 4 out of 5

Life

Behind Door Number 2

It may be the 3rd of December but I’m on the 2nd when it comes to my 12 days of Christmas Jigsaw Puzzle Advent Calendar. Yesterday was a wonderfully busy day so I didn’t get round to completing the puzzle being door number 2:

As it’s a 12 days of Christmas calender, I’m not rushing to do the next one. All 12 will be done before Christmas starts but the door number won’t be following the day of December.

Life, Relationship

Happy 4th Anniversary

Happy 4th Anniversary to us. 4 years; I cannot believe it. 2 years ago we got engaged and in 18 months we’ll be getting married. It’s been a big year for us. We’ve bought a house that we’re renovating. We’ve booked our wedding; making bigger commitments to one another.

We had a lay in. I temporarily forgot it was Tuesday and finished an episode of telly. Dave told me off and that was all the telly I watched today.

We came home after finishing puppy sitting for the in-laws, able to exchange our presents. Dave got me Noel Fitzpatrick autobiography and the Harry Potter expansion box. I got him the new Game of Thrones book.

We had a trip to the house. Need to ring the skip people as it’s still there. We also need to collect some more plaster for the plasterer. 2 bedrooms are now complete.

I also sorted out my car insurance it was up for renewal and they wanted me to pay an extra 300 a year. Not a chance.

The new job got back to me on yesterday’s replies. I think I’m gonna wait till Friday then hand my notice in. I could also cancel my notice closer to December if necessary.

I’ve spent some of the afternoon on Spyro; sods law it fucked up and lost my saved data. I had to start all over again. I have no idea what happened but anyway I got on with it and gained 16% back.

Now I’ve to finish packing and get to my grandparents, it my turn again to stay over.