Film: Life on the Line

I like most films that are based on true events. Life on the Line was one of them. I cried, laughed and loved with all the characters. My intuition was good and o so wrong.

A job that never crossed my path or my mind before.

The film has changed that.

A newfound understanding and a place in my heart for all the men and women around the world who have lost their lives and those who brave their lives every day to ensure the power stays on.

Whether your job title is lineman/woman or not I appreciate all you do. Power is not gonna be taken for granted again by me.

Watched: Baby Driver > 3.5 out of 5
Life on the Line > 4.5 out of 5

Anxiety, Life, Mental Health, Writing

A Relaxed Week on my Goals

This week I’ve tried to be more relaxed about completing my goals. I’ve gone from 4 non-telly days last week to 1 so far this week. Monday I set some ME TIME for the evening. I chose Pitch Black film then continued watching some episodes of Greys Anatomy.

Tuesday I went to the cinema to see Murder on the Orient Express. I went by myself. Didn’t have a full-blown panic attack this time. Just chest pains. I enjoyed the film even though I believe I was one of the youngest in the screen.

Wednesday I did a few pages of my Overcoming Workbook and then spent a couple hours watching some more Greys Anatomy.

Today, I did a yoga workout, did breathing exercises, completed a lesson of my BSL course. Helping me to achieve my no telly by spending my ME TIME evening reading than listening to music while doing some of my jigsaw puzzles.

Don’t worry, I’m not gonna start giving you a play by play of what I do each and every day. I just wanted to make a point. Although I did work on a couple of goals I spent time for myself doing what I wanted.

I don’t feel as mentally stressed for it. But I still feel tired. I’ve been sleeping through the night lately. Although the past couple of mornings I’ve woke to find either my engagement ring off or pillows and bedding at the other end of the bedroom. What I’ve been doing in my sleep I do not know.

Maybe it’s something I need to monitor. Be mindful of how I find myself and my room when I wake in the morning.


Life, Mental Health, Writing

Finding My Love for Volunteering Again

I miss volunteering and working with animals. This morning I was able to go to the shelter to help out with the morning run. It’s been many months since I last went. Even though the previous times Dave came with me. I went by myself and found my love for it again.

This evening Dave and I went to see the new Thor film. More the film for Dave than me. I don’t quite get the sense of humour the films bring. But it has been a good day. Just feeling tired of it.

Family, Friendships, Mental Health, Writing

A Sense of Control

It may have been Friday the 13th but I felt positive by the day I had. I had lunch with B. Our first proper girls’ outing. It was effortless! I didn’t feel like an imposter at all. I bought my one and only Halloween item and the first present of Christmas 2017. I’ve wrapped it and everything.


I even felt positive about my NVQ meeting. More so afterwards. I was honest about my feelings towards it and my job. She understood and supported me completely. Due to the way my NVQ works, I’m only allowed to finish my NVQ 2 months early. But it’s sooner than before.

After a lovely family film night watching The Fast and The Furious. I’m starting to feel control over my life.

Note: I know today is not Friday the 13th. My posts get published two weeks after I write them down. It happened to be Friday the 13th on that day. 

Anxiety, Depression, Life, Mental Health, Writing

Right Film. Right Time.

It may only be October but I do love a good Christmas film. The one I’ve just finished watching ‘A Wish for Christmas’ was just what I needed. I felt connected to it. Not realising before I watched it; it’s to do with courage.

Just exactly the right type of courage I needed to see. Standing up for yourself. Staying true to your values. Being open and honest.

I can do this. I can.

Depression, Life, Mental Health, Writing

No Words

I’m unsure exactly how to describe how I’m feeling right now. I’ve just finished watching the film; World Trade Centre. The one with Nicolas Cage.

Heartfelt is the word that comes to mind. I had a little cry towards the end. I think I need to sleep now. I’ve no more words.

Anxiety, Depression, Health, Life, Mental Health, Personal Development, Stratejoy, Writing

An Act of Courage

I worked on my courage today. It was one of my actions I needed to do for week 1. There are usually things I see in my head of which I can do with all the confidence in the world.

But actually doing them is a different story. Most things I struggle to do on my own. When I actually do whatever it is, it builds my confidence up. Slowly, but it’s up.

One of my confidence builders is: go against my brain/thoughts to complete something.

Today, I went to the cinema by myself. I love going to the cinema. Usually, I’m with my other half or friends. I’ve seen others go by themselves. I always think how brave they are.

A part of me thought “yep, I can do that.”

Going by myself today was my act of courage. I thought “I can do this!” I pre-booked my seat so I didn’t have to queue. One step at a time. 

When I was due to go my chest became painful. I was breathing heavy. I had to go to their bathroom before I went into the screen to use my inhaler. To calm down.

In the end I did it. I sat through the film and enjoyed it. Recommend Girls Trip. I had in my head that people were judging me.

The more I do things, my courage and confidence will grow. I’ll get out of that mindset.

Have you ever been to the cinema by yourself? How’d you feel?