Can I truly be myself if I keep looking for external validation?
I can’t control other people’s thoughts. I can’t control outcomes. I won’t experience success or failure until it’s upon me. There are some things that are beyond my control.
Why try to manipulate my brain power, if I can’t control what I can’t control?
Surely, I’ll get tired faster, leading towards failure.
If I try to control, how am I being present in the now?
Other people’s thoughts are their own. Thoughts are just thoughts. They come and go. Other people’s perspectives are different to my own. We may look at the same piece of art and see and feel different things. We may watch the same film, at the same time, in the same screen. You may have an insight. I may not. It was just an alright film to me.
How can I become attached to other people’s expectations, reactions or values when they’re not mine?
To be myself and to act in accordance with my values; I need to release other people’s validations. I am the one that is happy doing what I love. I’m the one experiencing the emotions, completing the actions. I’m the only one who can be me.
#3 Release others values, expectations and reactions – Molly Mahar
The pain hasn’t been as bad today. It’s still there in certain parts of my body but more manageable. Today was my last day working in the office. I spent it training the new Supervisor what/how I was completing my auditing.
I felt like I’ve been doing a job at a higher level. By doing this I’m a community carer training the Supervisor to do the job I’ve been doing for 7-months. That being said I’m now going fully back into my love of care and helping people.
I was able to get my Life Coaching course application in for the distance learning course with Newcastle College yesterday. The college works quick, I got my finance email today. I’ve the potential to start earlier than April from what the tutor said.
I believe I need a new system for my self-control and the ability to say no to myself and not just others.
Watched: The Zookeeper’s Wife > 4 out of 5
I thought being present in the now would be straightforward. Being in the past and jumping to the future for so long has made it difficult. Even with this challenge I still wanna continue changing my mindset.
I’ve run away from challenges or the difficulties in life. Changing my mindset isn’t a drastic challenge or must of a difficulty in life. But it can change my life!
Lately, when I have been in the present, I’ve got more enjoyment out of life. My thoughts haven’t been in control. Being present is where I wanna be 24/7. No matter how long it takes, I will get there.
Watched: Black Panther > 3.5 out of 5
Woo! I’ve got my phone back. I believe the majority of it’s new. But I have it back. I feel normal again.
I’ve been getting back into listening to music. I used to dance when I was at school. I liked the feel of music playing. There’s music I love and music that doesn’t move me. Moving my body to sound makes me feel good.
I’ve had parts of me in the past that’s regretted not continuing with dancing. Getting my love back for the sound and feeling again, I think I’d lose too much of it if I were to pursue it. Just like me and working with animals.
I wanna love to hear and feel the beats. I wanna sing to my heart’s content when no one is listening.
I watched the Brits for the first time tonight. Seeing their passion for their world, makes me understand music is for my enjoyment.
I wanna continue towards my passion to help people. I’m on the path to learning about myself. To be my authentic self.
I’m feeling more positive about life today. I was a little withdrawn yesterday. It would have been my grandma’s 90th. I didn’t have the words in me. I wanna make her proud. Working on bettering myself one day at a time.
I’ve been trying to organise myself a little less. I always plan what I’m gonna do each day so I don’t get to a point of nothing to do. Although I plan, I get frustrated and stressed because life takes control. I can’t do what I set out to do. I feel like I’m behind.
I’ve tried to stop doing this, I have a goal list and a to-do list. When something pops into my head I write it down to come back to later. Doing the things I feel I’m in the mindset for. When I get to a point I don’t know what to do next. I try to take a moment of not doing anything.
I’m finding it hard but getting a little easier too. I’d like to continue doing this. When I’ve worked on a goal I’ve been noting it in my diary, so I can keep track and tally up at the end of the month.
I wanna accomplish my goals and dreams but I also wanna enjoy life to the fullest too.
Watched: The Adjustment Bureau > 3.5 out of 5
Goals are like a jigsaw puzzle. The box shows a visual representation of what the end looks like. There to remind us each time we focus on it.
It would be great to open the box, let the pieces fall out and the puzzle be complete. The end goal realised. It’s never that easy.
Reaching the end goal leads to a path of enlightenment, gratitude, sadness, fear and all other emotions in between. No matter the end representation, each connection needs to be put together piece by piece. For the picture; the goal to form.
If goals were easy, we’d be completing them every day. Becoming a habit, to the point they’re not goals anymore.
A goal is a journey. A journey to who and what you wanna be. Don’t take the pieces for granted. It’s within you. Whatever it takes, those pieces allow learning, acceptance, sadness, laughter. Make each one count.
The end goal will arrive. It’s the journey, those small pieces that count.