Life, Mental Health, Relationship, Writing

2 Hours Later – I Need to Accept Change More

I had a period of low mood this evening. Dave said he’d be home by 4pm so we could spend the evening together. When 4pm rolled around there was no sign of Dave.

In the end, he was home by 6pm. The dogs and I ended up walking to met him and walked back together.

We still had a lovely evening together. I guess I felt disappointed as I was looking forward to spending quality time together, which did happen but no as I had seen it in my head.

Change of plans is something I need to accept more of.


Watched: Die Another Day > 4 out of 5

Life, Relationship, Writing

I’m Talking Work + Missing Dave

I love helping people. I’m glad I do it for my job. What I’m finding difficult is the travelling. It makes the weeks longer as my work hours are doubles because of the travelling.

Now that my NVQ has finished that’s not holding me back. I could start looking for a job but I don’t want to jeopardise the house buying. I’ve been doing the job 18 months; an extra month or two isn’t gonna hurt.

I feel more like I’m in the right job mind wise then a few months ago. I was ready to walk even with my NVQ happening. If and when I do leave my current job for the next challenge; it’ll be the customers that I miss.

I’m talking work as that’s all I’ve done today. Not exciting reading I know but not all people can lead exciting lives 24/7.

Whether happy, sad, moaning or my best piece yet. I’m gonna still write.


Dave stayed at his parents last night. When we weren’t living together, I found I didn’t really miss him at times. But I’m missing him more now we live together. I feel I am on the right path with him.

Well, it is a good job seeing as we’re buying a house together.

Life, Relationship, Writing

Time Together

Today was the first day where both of us weren’t working for a while; not annual leave. It was nice to be able to have the time together plus do our own thing and know tomorrow we can do the same. Where usually we’d have work the next day.

I also felt I could go around to D and R’s for a film, getting home later. We did have to wake the whole house up to get back in as someone locked an extra door so we couldn’t get in.

All in all, it’s been a lovely day. I’m glad the weather is as nice.

Life, Relationship, Writing

Living Together a Month

It’s certainly a waiting game now. Especially with yesterday being one after another. We’ve sorted out the surveyor for the house.

As I was in the mood for sorting out, I finally booked my car in for its recall appointment and got around to changing more addresses. We’ve been living together a month now. It feels like we have forever. It’s been so natural to us.

Tomorrow is my last NVQ observations. Not sure it’ll be the last for my knowledge questions but the end is near.

Life, Writing

Giddy Moment No. 2

It’s time for a happy dance! The giddy moment is happening. The vendor said yes to our offer. The process has begun on buying a home. I’m proud of myself. I’ve been ringing people up to find out information and to sign up for all the legal processes, I’ve needed to without even thinking or overthinking.

I’m excited but trying not to get ahead of myself. I’ve told my dad the news this evening. We’re still in need of a proper sit down with Dave’s parents. In fact, even though we’ve been together 3 and 1/2 years, our parents still haven’t met. I think I need to set that up too.

New experiences ahead!

Events, Family, Goals, Life, Relationship

I want our big day to feel right

We went to a wedding open day at a venue close to home today. Before going I had in my head that I don’t want my wedding in a marquee but this one impressed me. It had that indoor vibe rather than a tent popped up.

This venue (The Holmefield Arms) has turned out to be a real contender. The only doubt about it is about disabled access to the ceremony room. This could make or break this as a possibility.

I liked this one over The Rodgerthorpe one we saw last month at a fayre. The disadvantage to that venue is the numbers. Think I’ll keep my eye out for an open day so we can see a set up for the wedding space.

Even though we decided we’re gonna get married in 2021. We’re unable to book a venue. I’m glad we’re looking as we’re able to take our time looking around. I can get a feel for the places without having to rush to make a decision and have that doubt behind my choice.

I want our big day to feel right in all ways.


Watched: Peter Rabbit > 4 out of 5
Keeping up with the Jones > 4 out of 5
The Colony (2015) > 3 out of 5

Family, Life, Relationship

48 Hours Together

It’s rare when we get a whole 48 hours together. Dave works every Saturday, me every other weekend. We don’t get a whole weekend together without booking it off. When I am off on a weekend, I’m spending apart of my day figuring out what I wanna do.

There are times I love having the time to myself. Others I feel its an inconvenience.

Our first 48 hours off together in 2018. It’s been a blessing. I’ve felt more relaxed by our relationship and with the whole time together. Each day we had an event to go to. I usually stress over these too.

But I’ve had fun. Even with the adulting as well. Tomorrow is another day of family celebration. Feeling positive about #joy2018.


Watched: Pitch Perfect 3 > 3 out of 5