Career, Life, Writing

What do you want out of your job?

Always good to be back at work.

Can you tell sarcasm in writing?

I’m not the best judge at the best of times.

When the phone rings I get a sense of dread. Don’t get me wrong, I love the helping people part, its the office part of work I’m not feeling good about.

I’m wanting stability, flexibility would be nice but what am I wanting out of my job? I don’t wanna dread having to pick up the phone. I’m not 100% sure exactly what I want from my dream job.

Being permanent is a must. Also having a set number of hours. No more o hour contracts. I want to be in a company that values, is honest, shows respect and has good communication.

Is that asking too much?

I don’t want one that believes its ok to guilt trip staff into things.

Other things that I’d like… I’m gonna have to think about before I consider writing them down. I currently have no clue.

Life, Relationship, Writing

I’m Talking Work + Missing Dave

I love helping people. I’m glad I do it for my job. What I’m finding difficult is the travelling. It makes the weeks longer as my work hours are doubles because of the travelling.

Now that my NVQ has finished that’s not holding me back. I could start looking for a job but I don’t want to jeopardise the house buying. I’ve been doing the job 18 months; an extra month or two isn’t gonna hurt.

I feel more like I’m in the right job mind wise then a few months ago. I was ready to walk even with my NVQ happening. If and when I do leave my current job for the next challenge; it’ll be the customers that I miss.

I’m talking work as that’s all I’ve done today. Not exciting reading I know but not all people can lead exciting lives 24/7.

Whether happy, sad, moaning or my best piece yet. I’m gonna still write.

Dave stayed at his parents last night. When we weren’t living together, I found I didn’t really miss him at times. But I’m missing him more now we live together. I feel I am on the right path with him.

Well, it is a good job seeing as we’re buying a house together.

Anxiety, Life

Work can still make me anxious

Today I felt sick due to being anxious in a long while. I shadowed another carer on a call to meet a customer new to me. I believe I felt sick because I knew I would either be accepted or not. I’m glad I had customer around that call that I knew.

Thankfully, I was accepted. I’m on my own tomorrow with the customer. I feel better about going. Hopefully, I’ll have no sick feeling.

Career, Life, Mental Health, Writing

Being Happy in my Job

You’ve probably read I’m a community carer if you’ve read my previous posts. Last August I was given the opportunity to do extra for the company within the office. Since starting this part of my role, I’ve felt a bit mixed.

There was never a new contract, just a verbal agreement about what I would be doing. Many times since, I’ve felt more of a negative vibe from the office side of things. More due to the fact that they’ve requested more of me and expect me to do things beyond the agreement.

Some of the things I’ve been happy to do, whereas others I haven’t been able to say no. For times I’ve said no and done what’s best for me, I haven’t felt the respect.

I love my carer side of my job. The job I’m contracted for. I’m good at it. That’s the place I wanna be. I feel positive out in the field. Due to this, I have given my notice to the office side of my role.

I want to be doing what I love.

Goals, Health, Life, Mental Health

A Change for my Self-Care

This week has been a long one for me. I’ve worked all week. I’ve been in my funk. I’m so tired. I feel my body is shutting down on me. For a while, I’ve thought about changing my availability at work again. I’ve been holding it off.

After talking with Dave, I’ve changed my availability form. I’ve done it so 2 days a week I finish at 5pm. Along with my 2pm finish on a Friday and 2pm start on a Saturday on my weekends on. I’ll have 3 evenings and 1 morning a week for myself to be able to have some down time.

Feeling this way made me not want to socialise and just get into bed. But I still went and I’m glad I did. Good food, company and an alright film,. Feeling this way makes me grateful for my annual leave coming up.

Watched: 12 Rounds 3: Lockdown > 3.5 out of 5

Goals, Life, Mental Health, Writing

The Insights Keep Coming

There was a time when I would get frustrated, start rushing things when a call out for work I was on ran over time. Now, I can tell my mindset is changing, continuing to grow in the right direction.

I had thoughts but I let them pass through, allowing me to get on with what I needed to do to help my lady get comfortable again, mind and body. My 1/2 hour call ended up being 1 hour and 25 minutes. The extra time I’m not getting paid for. This also got to me.

But last night regardless of these things, I was making a difference to my lady. She was embarrassed, upset, angry at herself and the situation she was in. But thankful and grateful for what my other carer and I did and the patience we showed.

That moment right there is the reason I want to help others, make a difference. To see the change from bad to good in the person and/or situation. I am on the right path.


Career, Life, Mental Health, Writing

Work Effecting Mood

I’m day 2 of my 7 day work week. I’m already tired, dreaming of my NVQ to finish so I can change jobs. Even though I’ve still got a couple of months left to wait for that. I am grateful, due to how my annual leave has fallen, that I now get 5 weekends off in a row.

I’m also proud of myself for saying no to a call I was asked to add to my already packed day. If I had said yes, I wouldn’t have been able to have my 1/2 hour break at my grandparents to have my dinner.

I’m grateful for my grandparents for allowing me to pop in between calls, otherwise, I’d be eating out of a lunchbox, in a layby, in the dark. At this time of year, I don’t feel comfortable with that. Being at my grandparents meant I could have a proper meal and a hot one.

A good nights sleep will hopefully get me into a more positive mood again.