I’ve done better with this No Telly Tuesday; I haven’t forgotten about it. I’ve been productive at Getting Some Shit done. I’ve also popped into my new job to hand in some last pieces of paperwork. Hopefully, my last reference is going to be sorted too. I have everything crossed that I’ll finally get a final official job offer.
HoCo 2018 Day 2
I asked my grandad about the exercise bike last night. He said I can get rid. I’m gonna see if I can get some pennies for it and if nothing comes from that take it to the charity shop. I’ve also decided to declutter my file box for the activation challenge. It’s where I put things I need to sort out another time. It’s like my physical to-do-list but my digital to-do-list gets more attention.
I listened to the first guest interview but listening is a strong word. I was getting distracted by other things. I couldn’t or should I say I struggled on a general basis to sit and just listen. I ended up pausing at each distraction so I couldn’t miss anything that was being said. Being in the now and listening is something I need to work on. Even so, I did take things from Jen Louden call:
I used to do monthly updates but I’ve lapsed on these in the past view months; maybe coming up with my own tracking review each month will put me back on track on my yearly goals to have a check in with myself in between each of the quarterly reviews. I could use my diary as my weekly check-in? Give myself a reality check to what appointments, work and to-dos that need doing and the time I have to do the work on my goals. Allowing myself to schedule and focus on some me time.
What I really need to do is celebrate the good things, what goes right when a goal is finished.
I need to be aware of constructing identity. Jen explains this is where current desires are being looked through the lens of the past. For example, using I should have done this etc. But also be aware of what future identities like visualisations that are sabotaging the present. Practice focusing on the now; maybe with meditation. I need to let go of the past and future energies that may not be possible right now to prevent my NOW identity from growing.
I also need to figure out what is good enough for me. What does enoughness look or feel like to me? I believe I hold my enoughness at too high a level. Sabotaging my satisfaction and giving too strong intentions. I need to let go of expectations. That the goals I haven’t reached this year are still a vision, just because I didn’t get there this year doesn’t mean I can’t try again next year.
While writing up these answers I’ve realised that I’ve got some responses for my reflection challenge; things I want to leave behind in 2018. I’ve still yet to figure out how I’m gonna do in terms of ritual.
I feel that I’ve taken this HoCo this year more on board in the last two days then I did for the whole of the first year of doing it. I’m making progress!!